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Chapter 1

Serena's P.o.v

As I walked down the cold streets of brooklyn newyork i pulled my coat tighter and closer to me.I loved and hated newyork .all the streets Long and filled with dog shit on every corner.I hated to men who made sexaul comments and remarks at me.Or smelling the scent of weed and achole as the wind hit me.I hated It completely.Somethings I do love about new york are all the liberies and stores.I love reading and gettimg lost into the stories .Its like my escapeFrom my reality.I hate life or atleast my life.Im sure most 17 year olds think that or say that but I truely hate living.All i feel is pain and hate.When I look in the mirror all i see is A broken girl waiting to die and end my pain.Never thought at 17 I would be living in a shelter and Going to a hell hole called School..Once I reached. Ps.44 highschool I sighed and Pulled my hood more over my face and walked in with my head down.as i expected mostly people pushed and hit me with thier book Bags.I sighed I hate my life.after getting my books from my locker and closeing it i walked into english and sat in the back seat next to the window.Once class started I did my work quietly Intill Amy adams started kicking my chair.Amy adams is a life-ruiner She has always Told lies and rumors about me.She told everyone I was a drug addict and was addicted to meth and cocaine.Even the teachers believed her.I sighed and turned around"can you stop kicking my seat Amy".she gave me a disguested look and replied "Shut up you fat coke head bitch".Tearing up i grabbed my bookbag and ran out of class.I looked down at my boots walking down the hall.Two Boys from my math class Chris and Nolen Grabbed me and carried me into the Boiler room.When I screamed for help Nolen punched me in my mouth about two times.I winced and cried in pain.Chris slamed my body Harshly against the wall ripping my shirt open.I tried punching and pushing him away but nolen Kept hitting and banging my head against the wall .Soon i felt dizzy and My eyes slowly closed and I sliped into darkness.

-4 hours later-Groaning my eyes opened as i heard the bell ring loudly.I looked down only to see my naked body covered in bruises of black,blue and dark purple.I held back my tears and put on my clothes.Pulling my hoody over my head i left the room walking down the full hallway.Amy screamed loudly "Hey Serena Howd you like being fucked by two guys!you std spreading whore!!" Everyone looked at me and whispered or shook thier heads and laughed.I rsn quicky out the School and down the street to the bus stop.I waited for the bus sliently crying.once the bus came I got on and sat in a ramdom seat crying.I didnt even care about anyone seeing me cry.this pain was just so unbearable and Mentaly draining.I just wish i never was born.Once at my stop I got of the bus and walked down the streets to the shelter.I looked around to the play ground across from the shelter and i wished i was as happy as the kids who played there .I looked away and walked inside the buliding which always smelled like Weed and got into the elevator sliently. Why me? I'll never know or understand why fucking me.I got out the elevator and. Walked to my room and unlocked the door walking inside.my room was small only a twin bed ,a stove and refridgerator and a small bathroom.But i was glad I was safe.I didnt have much but i'll live.I quicky took a shower with burning hot water and washed with some bleach.I needed to not feel dirty.once i got out and dressed into sweats and A long sleeved shirt with socks.I tied up my overly curly hair and layed in bed.My whole body burned but I derserve this pain I guess.I wondering if one day i could be atleast somewhat happy.But intill then. Its just another day .