In Between

Chapter 6

I was speechless, I didn't know what to say.

"W-what?" I said looking at him.

"You heard me." He said with a serious face.

"Lance I-" before I could finish he started laughing.

"Boy your face is priceless. I'm just playing ma. Why don't you want to tell me where you work? It ain't like you really are a prostitute, or even a stripper." He said smiling and looking at me.

"You don't need to know what I do, just like i don't need to know what you do." I said trying not to look guilty.

"Whatever but let's talk." He said pushing his chair closer to me.

"We are talking."

"I mean about us... Why couldn't we be together back then? What was up?" He said with pleading eyes. He always wanted to know but I still haven't told him and I'm scared to tell him.

"Lance I don't feel comforta--"

"Look at me baby." He said lifting my chin up. "Something was really bothering you back then and I can tell it still bothers you because if it didn't your body wouldn't had tensed up like it did and then at that you wouldn't be so uncomfortable to tell me. We tell each other everything and you're not telling me this so you know there's a problem."

"I was raped." I said low.

"What?"

"I said I was raped. At that time my mom and dad was separated. My mom friend raped me almost every night."

"What!!" He said in anger. "What the fuck Liyah? I could've help... Your mom didn't know about this?" He stood up.

"No and she still doesn't. He would always come home drunk and mad because my mom wouldn't have sex with him. He comes to my room and starts to undress me but before I could scream he pulled out a gun saying he'll start shooting. He kept undressing me saying that it's either me or my mom. I didn't want to see my mom like that so I---" I said before he cut me off. My mom actually did know but if I told him she did I know he'll try to go up there and tell her about herself.

"So you let him rape you?" He raised his voice.

"Ok tell the whole damn world why don't you. I was looking after my mom. My dad did her wrong and she just wanted to feel loved so she got with Steven. I didn't want her to hurt even more after what she just went through. So I took the punch for her. I couldn't tell anyone because he threatened my life."

"You were 15 Liyah!!"

"15 and trying to look after my mom. I knew I had nothing to live for. I knew that when I grew up I would be nothing. My life has been ruined since I was born. I seen and been through too much shit. I felt worthless anyways, so why not let a man just use my body as a toy." I said and I had tears. He came up to me and hugged me.

"You're not worthless, you hear me? And don't just think you're some toy for men because you're not. I really just wish you would of told me. I want to protect you. I love you." He said making me look up at him. Did he just say what I thought he said.

"What?"

"I said I love you, I've always loved you since high school. That's why I haven't gave up on you." He said and I just looked him in his eyes.

"I have to go." I said getting out his arms. I was getting attached and I just couldn't. I'm a damn prostitute and I don't know if I want to give that up right now.

"Liyah, what's wrong with you." He said grabbing my arm. "You're still fucking shutting me out when I'm trying to get close to you."

"I'm not right for you. Trust me." I said just looking at him. "Can you please just take me home." He didn't say anything he just walked passed me into the house.