Love at first sight (a louis Tomlinson fanfic)

Should I?

Jordan's POV

When louis drove me home I saw something I was not expecting

I saw my mom lying lifeless blood all over my dad crying and worst of all my moms arm was not there it was sticking out of the car window after I saw that I could not hold back the tears no longer

I broke down

I completely forgot louis was there he was comforting me whispering soothing things in my ear like
Shhhh it's ok and
Calm down shhhhh you'll be ok shhhh

But It didn't help
I ran out of the car and past my lifeless mother
My crying father
And ran up to my room locked the door and went to the bathroom and locked the door then I broke down again
The tears were streaming down my face like crazy.
Then I saw a razor and I thought should I...
Ehhhh I grabbed the razor and stared at it for a good 10 minutes or so then I thought...
I'll just be hurting my self more but it might feel great and sound like a great idea but yet again I might slip into another coma and I will defiantly end up in that hell hole the hospital but it's worth it.

I took the razor and sliced it against my skin I screamed in agony but yet it felt sooooooooo good so I did it 10 more times
I had 11 cuts
Louis must have heard cause he started banging on the door yelling Jordan r u ok and let me in.

Just then I realized how much my arms were bleeding I could not clean this up myself

I opened the door to my bathroom and my bedroom and saw Louis
His eyes widened
Then I fell and all I remove was louis cry JORDAN...
Before everything went black

HEY GUYS ITS ME SRY FOR THE DELAY HOPE U LIKE IT ILL UPDATE SUNDAY PROMISE LOVE U ALL OH AMD SRY BOUT THE MISS SPELLED WORDS
LIL