𝗜 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘀 𝗵𝗲𝗿

Chapter 5

Beomgyu pov

Time for exams I been studying for, all my times of getting distracted, but I still focused hard. I hope y/n does well. 

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"Remember class, Your grades will be online." I almsot forgot about that, I caught up with my friends and we chatted for a while, "so beom, how's you and y/n's situation?" Kai said, I felt happy about it honestly cause she replied back so knowing that she's good, but

I'm still thinking that she is with someone, I just wanna trust my gut so bad, but I don't wanna jump to conclusions and things get bad. 

"It's good." 

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After school I plopped on my bed looking at the ceiling, my eyes traveled everywhere, but landed on..

A picture frame 

Of me and y/n, 

That year when it was snowing and our parents took us to the snow party place.

She looked so happy with me, I wish we can be as close as we were then.

I did see her as a best friend, but as we grew up together our love of best friends, became more.

When I left without saying anything, I let her down completely.

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I got up from my bed and decided to look at our memories together, I went through my old picture book and saw all of our moments I didn't notice the door was ringing, I was zoning out and just crying slightly. I just let it all out while hugging my pillow 

Not noticing..

Yeonjun standing in my doorway

I just didn't care at the point I just cried on my pillow

My eyes were so sore, and puffy.

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"Hey, it's okay..Beom please don't cry. I'm here." 

I got up and saw yeonjun, I slowly got up hugging my pillow and wiping my tears, but useless cause they kept coming down.

"There was one mail on ur doorstep. I suggest you read it." 

I put down my pillow, it was hard to read since I had tears just in my eyes. 

I opened it, 

Hey, beomie!! It's y/n I'm sorry I didn't reply to ur texts lately, I've been so busy and focused on school I barely have time or barely do anything cause I'm just such a nerd nowadays since I've been in boarding school. 

It's hard, But I may be found a day where I can possibly come back! May 7th is good for you? I also can't use my phone cause my friend is using it at the moment. hehe, I miss you a lot beom..

I felt like a total jerk for thinking you should spend more time with me, I knew you were busy those days. I'm also sorry I left too without saying anything, But you left before me... I'm still sorry.

Tell me when you are free, I'll come for you. I'll wait for you, I have something to tell you when I do come back! 2 great things. 

-Love, Y/n

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I felt tears come down my face, I put the note on my chest and cried my eyes out. 

Yeonjun rubbed my back while I thought about y/n,

People would think I'm foolish for crying like this over a person.

But, No. 

She's special to me, really. 

I...I do love her. 

She's not just a best friend to me anymore

I love her.

But, How does she feel about me?

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