Hopeful Oblivian [a Jean x Marco fanfic] [yaoi]

Chapter 4 --Jeans POV--

--TRIGGER WARNING --
I ran after Marco after he ran into his room. Just before I got to his room I stopped at Armin. "WHAT DID HE SAY!?" Armin stuttered out a response "H-he likes you.." I then pushed Armin off to the side and barged into Marco's room just as he took the knife off his wrist. "Marco stop!!" I ran over and grabbed the knife from his hand. Tears streaming down my face I look for a towel. "Marco! Never do this again.." I grab a towel and wrap it tightly around Marco's bloody cuts.

Why would Marco cut? I've never seen scars... He's not like that... I grab Marco by his arm and pull him into a hug. "I love you.." I whisper softly, so he can barely hear me. SHIT WHAT DID I JUST SAY!? I run out of the room just after I let go. I bump into Armin on my way, sprinting off before he says anything. I end up running into Eren full force on the way.

"WHAT THE HELL JEAN GET OFF ME!!" Eren screamed in my face. Fucking anger issues. "I'd rather not deal with you. Especially people like you." I stood up and walked away. Smooth Jean smooth. I calmly walk to my room, checking behind me every now and then. The least I could do is avoid Marco.

I walk into my room, slamming the door behind me, waiting a few seconds and then it happens. Here come the water works. I lay on the bed crying my eyes out, only perking up when I realized it. Everyone but Marco knew I was gay. I grabbed a knife, I mean Marco did it right? It can't hurt that much, Marco is a wimp about pain... I slid the knife on my wrist, carving in the word "Gay".

*KNOCK KNOCK* shit who's here? I stood up hiding the knife, throwing on my jacket to cover my arm. SHIT THIS STINGS! Screaming in the back of my head, I put on a calm face and wipe away the tears and answer the door. "Hello?" I open the door to see Krista. Why is she here...?

I open the door wider and offer her in, its only polite right? "I just talk to Marco." Oh god.
"What did he say?"
"He wants to see you." Krista stood up and walked away. I ran out after her hoping she'll lead me to him. Just as I hoped, she lead me to him. He ran up and hugged me, i pushed him back quickly. "H-hey lets go talk somewhere else..."

I grabbed his hand and ran off, i ended up running to my room, knowing the knife was hidden I sat down on my bed with Marco. "I love you too." Marco whispered as my face turned bright red. MARCO. JUST SAID. HE LOVES ME. I looked up at him, my face was visibly red. "A-as a friend right..?" I stuttered again, blushing deeply awaiting a responce.
___________________________
CLIFF HANGERS. YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU. Anyway sorry if you're triggered by cutting, if you are I'm very sorry, please stay strong.