Make me feel

6- sleepover?

This last week I have been spending time with Alina, we eat together, I pick her up for school and drop her off, and sit together at class and hang out after school, basically we have been together this whole week.

Her presence it's something I need now. If she isn't with me I get annoyed at every little fucking thing and I get anxious, it's annoying.

Really fucking annoying

I don't even know her for a month and i'm already attached, but it's her..so I don't mind.

It's been hard to be around her, my pants tightens with every little move she does. I discovered that my love language is touch, I keep wanting to hold her hands or hug her or even grab her bag when we're walking. I just need her besides me.

Alina is so fucking pretty and nice, I have never met someone that is genuinely so nice. She's so special, Alina is the only person i'm comfortable with, she makes me feel safe.

All of this is so new to me, but I for sure know that's it's way to early to even know what I feel for her. I'm just gonna keep being around her and hope everything goes well? yeah i'm gonna do that

I don't fucking know

It's friday and today we didn't have class, I asked Alina if she wanted to go eat ice-cream with me again but she said she couldn't because of something with her brother, I didn't really get it.

So now i'm just home alone shirtless with sweatpants that hang low on my waist, smoking with music on full volume on my speaker.

Dad is out of town for whatever fucking reason. He sent me a voicemail but I stopped listening to it after the first seconds, the only thing I picked up was that he wouldn't be home for the weekend, not that it would make any difference. It's like he doesn't live here

Two knocks sound through the front door making me furrow my eyebrows, it's 8pm and I definitely wasn't expecting anyone.

Putting down my joint I walk towards the stairs and head down to the front door, opening my front door with a cold look, my eyebrows raise as I see a teary eyed Alina standing there

'Baby?' I softly call out for her

It hurts to see her so devastated, did she walk here alone?

She quickly stuffs herself on my chest and starts crying. I hug her back and grab the back of her thighs making her straddle my waist. I walk us towards my room and I sit down. I stroke her hair and give her soft kisses at the top her head.

'What's wrong pretty girl?' I calmly ask her seeing that she's a bit more calmed down now

'N-nothing I just had a stupid fight with Gray and I wasn't thinking i'm sorry' she wipes her nose and I tilt her head making her face me, I wipe her tears away and kiss both of her eyes making her giggle

She doesn't seem like she wants to keep talking about whatever happened between them so I don't ask her anymore questions

I smile as I look at her 'you shouldn't walk alone tho ok? why didn't you call me?' I ask her as I put her hair behind her ear. She moves lightly on my lap making me grab her hips to make her stop moving. Right now is not the time for a hard on

'I forgot? like I said..I wasn't thinking, I didn't even bring my phone' she admitted as she messed with the rings on my fingers, I hum letting her know it's ok.

I grab my joint again and inhale, I exhale to the side so I don't bother the pretty girl straddling my lap, she eyes the joint curiously. 'You know what this is?'
She nods her head and giggles 'Of course silly' she joked

'So you smoke?' she wondered and I nod at her question 'mhm, does it bother you angel?' I ask her as I keep smoking

'No not really, I just haven't tried it' She shrugs

I inhale again and grab her face and tilt her head upwards, her eyes wide as I lower my mouth and I exhale the smoke in her mouth, her lips soft and gentle.

'exhale love' she blows out the smoke and red is scattered around her cheeks

'Hm how's that?' My voice coming out huskier than usual

'It's nice, I kinda like it' she shyly mumbles and starts playing with the strings of my sweatpants, she hasn't commented on my lack of shirt so I'm hoping it doesn't bother her.

'Are you gonna stay over?' I ask her, she probably doesn't wanna go home now. Besides, it's late

'Um can I leo?' she says with a small voice 'of course love, just text your brother from my phone and let him now you're okay for me pls?'

She nods and grabs my phone, already knowing the password she texts her brother letting her know she will see him tomorrow.

I look down at her clothes, She's wearing a cropped t shirt with some short shorts. A shiny metal shines on her belly button, a belly piercing? how can she be so fucking sexy. I place my hands on her soft thighs and caress them softly, she leans down again and hugs my waist, her head on my neck.

I lay us down with her on top of me and cover us with my blanket. Soft lips kiss my jaw making me close my eyes and my mouth to slightly open, 'Good night leo' she mumbles tiredly and she later falls asleep

Leaving me alone with my not so clean thoughts of the beautiful girl on top of me, I force my eyes to close and slowly I fall asleep too.

I wish I could have more nights like these