LAWS OF LOVE (Jinkook ff)✅

59. Forever Love

Mr. Kim pov(Yoon Seok)

In loving memory of
Kim Rose
1972-2002

"I was the one.... I was the one who is wrong all the time... I.... Its because of me... You died... Our baby died.... I am sorry...... You.....You didn't deserved this...... You.... I didn't deserved you... You shouldn't have loved me.... I failed... I failed in protecting you as i promised...... Its my fault..... I don't know how to wash away my sins..... I am a total failure.... I didn't realised that betrayer..... I didn't thought he will do such a thing..... I couldn't..... I am sorry..... I am sorry..... " I couldn't control my tears as i cried in front of my Rose.

Guilt... Sorrows.... Pain.... Fear...

I am feeling different kinds of emotion now. I don't know what to do... I can't bring back time.... Because of me..... Because of my mistake.... I lose the happiness of not only my family,..... But also... My Jinnie's....

I know how it feels losing a child... But i just do the same sin to Choi... All this time i had a reason... But now.... I don't have any excuses.... Any justification..... I was wrong.... My baby.... My Jin.... I did a sin to him..... He will be hating me now.... Hearing that his parents were innocent... They were not at fault... I didn't have any strength to face him.... I don't know what to say to him...... My son.... Forgive Appa.... Please....

I closed my eyes and shed more tears till i felt two arms engulfing me from back as i am sitting on the ground.

"A-appa...." His small voice caused me to open my eyes. But i couldn't look back due to the guilt.

"Appa.....Don't cry.... It breaks my heart..... Eomma also won't be like if you cry..... Its over.... Everything is over..... I am fine... Appa.... Don't cry please..." He said pressing his head on my shoulder and sobbing.

Appa... He called me Appa.... Not only once... Many times..... I want to be happy for that.... But... I couldn't.....

" Forgive Appa... Jinnie... For everything i caused you. " I mumbled looking down. His head raised from the shoulder and he move to my friend and cupped my cheeks. Even through the teary eye i can see his face with slap marks and bruises. His eyes are teary. I moved my eye from him not being able to hold myself from breaking down.

" Forgive? For what? For caring me? For loving me? For treating me like a prince?... Appa.... You didn't do anything.... It is not your fault.... Don't blame it on yourself.... All you did was loving me... Caring me..... You are a good father for me. I am still proud of being the son of Kim Yoon Seok.... You will always be my Appa... Whatever be the truth.... Past is past... Let's not think about it.... You are my Appa.... That won't change till my last breath... I left you not because i hate you...Its because i can't accept the fact that i am not your son... Everything is over now.... So don't cry Appa...." He said looking at me. I lost it and i hugged him tightly and cried more. He too was crying in my hold.

I looked at my Rose and smiled proudly with tears in my eyes.

This is our son Rose..... Always be....

We stay there in eachother's hold till i felt another presence beside us. I looked towards that place.

It was him.... That police officer whom Jin was dating now... I smiled at him...