Missing You Is Easy

Loving You Is Painful

Helen POV
*Few hours before*
I look towards Lucy and find her eyes had rolled in the back of her head and soon the jerking starts, oh crap she's seizing, "Lucy, Lucy it's okay" I try to see if there's anywhere I can park but there isn't, the motor  way is completely rammed, I try to lower Lucy's seat down with one hand which I successfully mange just do just as the traffic starts to move, Lucy stops seizing just as I near a slip road which I hope to turn into so I can park and check her over. Just as I'm about to turn I hear choking I then and Lucy is choking On a mix of puke and blood I quickly try and tend to her when all of a sudden another car comes crashing into us and everything is spinning and the sounds of wheels sccreaching and glass shattering is deafening until silence.....

(Present day)
Max POV
"Max" I hear Elenor say my name but at the same time I can't all I can hear is my heartbeat in my head and the taste of bitter bile that's slowly climbing up my throat before shaking myself out of my thoughts abs I crash into reality with a explosion of questions; "Accident?!" "What kind of accident?!" "Where's Helen?!" I ask all in one breath already making my way to my locker so I can grab my bag "Max take a breath for me" she says down the phone as I return to the Ed to sign myself out with Veronica looking at me like I have two heads "You can't be serious you can't be leaving again?" She says spitefully as Floyd and Iggy continues  to watch me as I hold my cell to my ear like it's some sort of life line before Elenor speaks again "I'm Not sure what happened exactly just that another car directly hit hers off a slip road, when I got there Ambulances had already been called, the car had been completely turned over, the patient she was bringing was pronounced dead at the scene, Helen was unconscious and has been in and out since we arrived at St Georges, she's in CT at the moment to check her head and spine as she's complaining of pains and numbness there but it may be shock, she has dislocated right knee, a broken collarbone and wrist, she will be getting a chest xray as we thing we are looking at a few fractured ribs and possibly a punctured lung she has large bruising on her stomach which worried us as it could be a ruptured spleen but she was checked at that's okay, reconvert is going to take a while but it could
Of been so much worse and..." I interrupt her "check again" "Max" and I sigh down the phone "check again! You know as a dr ruptured spleens can go unnoticed at times so please get them to check again, I will be on the first flight there, update me with any news" I say sternly before hanging up. Without even thinking I kick over a trolly and a IV pole that's standing next to it "MAX!" Veronica yells but I ignore her as I breathe heavily "I want you out!! Max I'm going to the board I want you out and I don't want you back!!" I turn around to her completely seething as Iggy holds my other arm clearly scared I'm going to throw something at her but I shrug him off harshly "Good!! Fuck you! And fuck this hospital!! I'm going and I'm not coming back because the love of my life is currently in some hospital oceans away after being in a car wreck and I'm not there!!! I wasn't there wen Georgia died and now Helen I'm not there I'm not there! IM NOT IM....THERE" I slide down the wall my body being completely wrecked by sobs, Iggy crouches down in front of me "Max" he says concerned but I shake my head "I choose the hospital over who I love I did it again and now she's hurt like Georgia and I'm not there I'm not there" I feel myself panicking but I can't stop not even when Iggy holds both my hands "Max... breathe for me....who told you this? Where's Helen what hospital"? I breathe heavily as I reply almost robotically quietly "Her coworker, Helen was bringing a patient to the clinic and came off a slip road, she's at St Georgia's getting a head CT she has um broken wrist collar bone maybe ribs and uh something with her knee and they say her spleens ok but I want them to check and and I'm and I should of been there" I cry into Iggy's chest and he comforts "shh sh sh sh Max deep breaths" I copy Iggy in and out in....and out" after a while Iggy speaks again "Max she's okay, a bit battered but she's okay this isn't Georgia, no you wasn't with her but you were here somewhere Helen wanted you to be, you chose here because of Helen" I breathe deeply too and slowly nod through my tears I then look around and see everyone in the ED starring at me Floyd and Veronica included yet they don't look hateful, bitter or even smug they look pitiful? Floyd rubs the back of his neck as he begins to speak "Max this isn't your fault nor was Georgia's death you know that don't you" I slowly nod and then Veronica is crouching down beside me "Max, go to Helen, I will get my jet to take you so you don't have any wait" I look at her confused "what?" I say in disbelief "Go pack and go to the airport my pilot will take you, look Max I will fight you for this hospital but not today not like this, when Helen is better you can come back and you can try and take me down, but not today, Despite what you may believe Max I'm not all evil and I truly meant what I said to you a few months ago, it's truly admirable the new life you have built for you and your daughter despite everything, now go" I stare at her for the longest time before nodding as Iggy helps me out "thank you" I whisper she nods and I'm about to walk away when Floyd calls out "Send Helen our best" I nod and start to walk away when I hear him shout out again "I'm sorry Max...for everything" and with that I make my way out of the Dam and get a cab to Lauren's apartment so I can pack.