-Purple- (Karlxreader)

-10-

*Mention of rape, none in this chapter though.*

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Y/n pov:

September 5

I wake up. In my room. What happened? My head hurts.

I turn my head and see Karl tearing up, Not crying fully, Small tears. Sitting on his phone.

"Karl? What happened? Are you okay? Your crying."

"Y/n? Oh my god, I had to pick you up last night. How do you feel?"

"What? Oh Kathy, w-what happened?"

"You don't know?"

"Did she-" I stop, did she rape me? what happened? I ty to sit up but my lower half hurts, all of it, my legs, my pelvis and whatever else is down there. Ha pelvis.

"Don't move. It will hurt you more"

"I see that" I still move to edge of the bed. 

He's worried, I can tell. "Karl?"

"Yes?"

"Do Clay and Sapnap know?"

"No, I think you should tell them when your ready."

"Can you call them in here?"

"okay"

He calls them in the room, I can't say it, i have no power to say it.

"Karl, can you say it, I can't"

"okay, well you know Y/n went out yesterday right?"

They shake their heads yes

"That Kathy person didn't want to 'talk' to her, she raped her."

At first, they didn't say anything but then Clay looked at me and spoke up.

"Are you okay?"

"I think so" 

Sapnap didn't seem so talkative about it, he just left. As I see a tear fall from Clay's eyes. He left too. 

Karl came to the bed and sat down. "Can I ask you something?"

"sure" I said with pain in my voice 

"why did you let me say you could go? I mean you said you had a bad feeling about it, and I wasn't sure why I wanted you to stay."

"I think I felt like I needed to but I wished I stayed here" I paused then mumbled "with you" I don't think he heard me, I don't know why but I would have preferred to be here with him than with anyone else.

"I'm so sorry I let you go, I feel bad" he said softly while I see tears fall down his face.

"Karl don't worry about it" I pause for a moment why did I go?  "I'll be okay"

"No, now I'm starting to think it's my fault"

"Karl its not" I think that it doesn't matter whose fault it was because it already happened and there is not going back at this point obviously. "Karl, it wasn't any of our faults, if anything it's Kathy's fault she did it while I was knocked out, I didn't want that. No one would. And not even you okay? And I understand how you feel because I felt that before."

He turned to me. All he said was "you did?"

I hesitate and look down, close my eyes and speak and relive the moment in my head. "Sadly yes, with my mom. I let her go to a party, well I didn't have a choice. she just left, No goodbye whatsoever. I had a bad feeling of her leaving and trust me I never cared where she went but that one time, before she left I begged her to stay but she hit me. After she left she proved to me that she never cared about me, I was an unplanned child. And she hated me. She never had time for me. She wouldn't even care if I left the house. My dad would have cared for me though, he left when I was 2 I think, I can't remember much, me and my mom got the news that he died in the hospital because of heart failure. anyways, my mom went to a party and she forgot she written the address down so I went there, I found her in a r-room on a bed, she had been ra-raped then stabbed. After, I ran home crying, packed my stuff and lived with my aunt, ever since then I picture that moment when I wished I convinced her to stay." I start to cry. "I wish I was her hero."

I open my eyes and look at Karl who is staring at the floor. "oh my- Y/n I'm so sorry"

I hug him and he hugs back. My safety.

"Karl, I think your my hero" 

he smiles through his tears. I wipe the tears off his face. His smile is comforting, like i feel safe with him, around him.

"I'm glad I can provide you comfort"

I don't want to get up cause it hurts too. I get up anyways I go to bathroom and get dressed in comfy clothes and leave. I sit on my couch and start to watch adventure time again, Karl joined midway through a episode. And I leaned my head on his shoulder.

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i feel like this is a filler chapter anyways i hope you liked it im sorry if it was short but im posting again late at night now im gonna go watch Foolish's stream bye.

Eat well, sleep good, and drink some water and put down your carbonated drink if you have one.

song at the moment: Numb Little Bug by Em Beihold 

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