Wrong timing!

Chapter 2: He's Doing it Again.

Chapter 2: he's doing it again

Pakaba ng pakaba.

Natatakot ako masaktan ulit. Natatakit akong Makita sya ulit. Im so doomed. I was about to run. But someone holds me. Forcefully. Wala akong magawa. There he is. In front of me. Its breaking me. Im dying Inside. All the pain.

"Its been a long time, its nice to see you Marj--" hindi ko na sya pinatapos Upang itama ang pagkawag nya sa pangalan ko.

"It's Mags. Not Marj."

"You've changed. You're not the on--"
Nagagalit ako dahil sinusumbatan nya ko! Nagagalit ako sakanya kasi Iniwan nya ko. Im so Fateful. Kung Mahal nya ko Hindi nya ko Iiwan. Ayoko na ng paliwanag nya Ayoko ng masaktan pero Heto Nasasaktan ako :( masakit :(

"ANO BA! ITS ALL OVER YOU BROKE MY HEAR--" hindi nya ako pinatapos magsalita ang he pull into his chest and i feel his Warm body. The agony i felt a while ago, faded. I feel the love of him. I feel Comfortable by his Side. But This is all wrong! Umalis ako sa pagkakayakap nya sakin nasaktan ako sa Sapilitan kong pagkawala dito. At this point Hawak Nya yung braso ko. Mahigpit yung pagkakahawak nya. He faced me. I cant contact to him straight. Binaling ko yung tingin ko pero Hinuhuli nya ito. Di ako makatitig. Pero tinititigan nya ko. Naiilang ako.

"marj look at me." In a super duper sad tone. I cant take this .

"Stop calling me marj. Its MAGS. MAGS MAGS!" Pangongorrect ko sakanya.

"Fine. Mags i just missed you so much. You make me insane paranoid.. All the craziest thing in the world... Im so dumb that i let you go.. Im so sorry.." Umiyak ako ng tuluyan :( ng nakita ko syang umiyak ng sobra. Nalulungkot ako. Sa nakikita ko Hindi ko kayang nakikita syang ganito.

Pero naging matigas ako.

"Jed look at me. You dont deserve me. I have nothing. I have no quality. Im so doomed. Ive lost myself.. My dignity... Were not bagay... Alam mo ba.. Were to far from each other. Famous to commoners. No. You dont deserve me. Just no."

Sabi ko, without thinking kung masasaktan ko ba sya o hindi . He looked at me.

"Mags. I wont be able to let you go. I cant. Yes i do crying when things are so important to m---"

Pinutol ko sya.

"You've already declared it. It's over!"
Nagmartya ako paalis. But, hinabol nya ko at lumuhod sa harap ko.

"Please Mags! Im begging you.. Let me love you again." He was so fateful. Im so sorry Jed. I do love you too but Its not the right time.

"Jed. I do to.. I do love you too.. But.."

"BUT WHAT! WHATS WRONG WITH YOU! WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO! I KNOW ITS ALL MY FAULT. I BROKE YOUR HEART BUT THIS TIME I PROMISE YOU HINDI KO NA UULITIN YON! WHY DONT YOU UNDERSTAND . WHY YOUR TRYING TO BE RUDE. PLEASE! I WONT LEAVE YOU UNLESS YOU SAY YES! PLEASE SAY YES :( PLEASE BABY I MISS YOU SO MUCH. PLEASE GIVE ME A CHANCE... MAGS."

Napanganga ako sa mga sinabi nya hindi ko alam ang sasabhin ko. Im so doomed. I was shocked. He's still crying at hindi ko to kayang nakikita syang ganito. Naiiyak ako . Oo umiiyak na ko . I dont want to see him like tis. I feel the guilt inside me.

He hug me tighter. So tight. I love this feeling. I love him so much . So much.

"Mags. I miss you so much. Badly! I cant take this Suffering anymore. Please let me court you?"
Tanong nya sakin . I can see in his eyes the sincerity. The honesty. I miss this boy so bad. I want too. But its not the right time.

I want too..
I want you to court me Jed.

"I want too. Je--" pinutol nya ko at sumigaw sya.

"And thats the point!" Sabay himas ng ulo ko. "Let me court you for the second time Mags. You will never regret this" sobrang malumanay ng pagsasabi nya. Sobrang husky ng boses nya kakaiyak. Ang saya ko sa feeling nya.

Di na ko nakapalag. Namiss ko sya e. Sobra nabaliw ako ng Sobra nung Wala na sya. Sasayangin ko pa ba? Wrong timing ba sya? Hindi. Tama to Mahal ko pa sya. At mahal nya pa ko.

He drive me home. May saya sa puso ko. After a while, nakarating na kami sa House namin. This time, bumaba sya para pagbuksan ako ng pinto ng sasakyan.

Pag bukas nito Ngumisi sya.

"See you around Miss Mags"

Wala akong alam sa mga nangyayare. Im puzzled. Pagpasok ko sa bahay kiniss ko si mama. At nag goodnight na ko. Hindi na din ako Kumaen. I need to rest.

"Totoo ba to? Hindi ako makapaniwala na Mahal nya pa ko. Baka shock lang yun Kasi Nakita nya ko . Bukas wala na yun"