this one's about you

the end

this is my final goodbye.
if only you knew how much

space

you took up in my mind in the months after.
this whole gap year actually.
so here i am saying my last goodbye.
i can no longer hold onto something
that was
and is
no longer.

i have nothing bad to say about you
you were perfect
the perfect girlfriend
perfect to me and my friends
my family loved you
and i love yours

i was the one who messed up
it was completely and utterly my fault.
i don't know if i can ever apologize enough
but i do know it was for the best.

i'm happy that i hold no bad feelings for you
so the past stays perfect
my first love was just that

love

i hope you find someone
who loves as fiercely as you do.
i hope that someday our paths cross again so that i can see how you are.
i hope you felt whole a long time ago, even though i am just now feeling whole again.
i hope your life is full of magic and love and happiness.

goodbye kate. it was great to know you.