In another life

01

Hyunjin was on his knees , staring at the engraved stone that was decorated with flowers around it.

He couldn't read what was engraved on the stone , it hurt him too much .

He wished he could take it all back .

His whole purpose in life was taken away from him and he blamed himself for it .

Hyunjin placed his bouquet down with the pile of other bouquets and dared to take a glance at the name on the grave stone .

In loving memory of
Lee Felix Yongbok

Hyunjin screamed as he buried his face into his plams , the cold empty graveyard echoed with hyunjin's mournful sobbing .

Hyunjin didn't know how he was ever going to live like this . They were so in love , they went through so much together and nothing could come between them . They thought they'd last forever. Felix was all hyunjin had .

But then one night hyunjin was driving Felix home and there was an accident and everything changed . And even though everyone told hyunjin it wasn't his fault he refused to let anyone else take the blame .

I'd been a week since Felix passed . Hyunjin was practically living in the graveyard . He'd practically sob his heart out and drinks till he passes out on the grave , and then someone would go and try to get him home in the morning and it would most probably be Chan or Minho .

"Hyunjin" Chan called out , making hyunjin look up to see him standing there .

"Get up . You can't continue this . You'll get sick . " Chan said as he tried to get hyunjin off the floor .

" Like it matters so much if I'm alive anyway "hyunjin pushed Chan away and crawled closer to the stone .

"Hyunjin You can't go on like this !" Chan said , trying to be strict for the sake of hyunjin's health even though he was hurting as well .

"Your right . I can't go on like this . I can't go on without Felix !" Hyunjin said , his voice cracking .

"I know it's hard hyunjin but you have to get through this " Chan said .

"Get though this ? GET THOUGH THIS !? Are you fucking with me right now ? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET THROUGH ANYTHING WITHOUT HIM !? LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE CHAN ! JUST LEAVE " Hyunjin screamed at Chris .

"Do you think Felix will like seeing you like this !?" Chan asked , his anger building up .

"Felix is not watching me . Felix is not here ! Felix is dead !!" Hyunjin screamed louder each sentence .

There was a few minutes of raging silence before Chan grabbed hyunjin's arm and tried to get him off the floor aggressively.

"Get the fuck off the floor hyunjin !" Chan strained as he fought hyunjin .

"Why the fuck do you even care when you know I caused this in the first place !?" Hyunjin screamed as he tried to get out if Chan grip .

"FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME HYUNJIN ! YOU DIDN'T CAUSE THIS !!" Chan yelled at the top of his voice as he let go of hyunjin .

Hyunjin looked up at chan and saw him crying .

"Leave" hyunjin said quietly as he looked back at the grave stone .