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HELL

Taehyung's POV

"15-June-2015
Dear Diary:
IT IS HAPPENING AGAIN... THEY ARE  DOING THIS AGAIN....I AM TIRED OF THEM..... I WANNA DIE!!!!...."

"25-June-2015
Dear Diary:
They are mentally torturing me, there each harsh word hits me in the heart like a sharp blade.....Is it my fault I came into this world???"

"30-June-2015
Dear Diary :
It was fucking them who had a one night stand, why are they making my life a hell....They were the one who brought me into this world it would have been better if they aborted me in the first place....every day I have to go through enormous pain. The pain of listening to your mother calling you filth and your father calling you useless, making you pay for what he is spending on you by forcing you to do all the house work, beating you only because...because you were born. It was never my decision to make, if I had been given a choice I would never have chosen to come into existence"

Y/n's Mom : You fucking filthy whore, because of you I can't leave this house. I am here just because of you.
Y/n's Dad : Why did you get such low grades huh??
Y/n : No dad please
Y/n's Dad : Why do I spend my money on such. a. looser. *with each word a kick and slap landed on me*
Y/n's Mom : Who told you to come into this world?? Ruined my life *pulling her hair* because of you I had to marry that shit.
Y/n : Mom ughh~ plea~ aaghhh let go of my hair...AAHHHH *head hit the glass table*
Y/n's Mom: Learn your lesson bitch don't ever try to meddle in my business.

Tears rolled down my cheek, my baby she had to go through all that, I quickly got up and took out the second diary.

"20-Feb-2016
Dear Diary:
Like always I wiped my tears swallowing them as if they never existed, today I again met grandma the only source of happiness for me. My grandparents are the only people who provide me the love I need I love them both so much. Plus I also have Hannah she is my best friend since I was in kindergarten, I could never afford to lose them they give me the smiles, support, happiness and the will to live. I love them so so much!!!!!"

Grandma : Awww my y/nieee finally arrived, look what have I cooked for you, all of these are your favorites. Eat alot OK, grandma wants to see you get chubby you have gotten so skinny recently.
Y/n : Well....that's because I am on a diet.
Grandma : You don't need to diet you are perfect my lovely doll.
Y/n *hugs* : I love you grandma.

"5-Oct-2016
Dear Diary:
Am I that bad of a person? don't I deserve a happy life? am I not lovable enough? I loved and trusted her so much. She meant so much to me. The only person I was friends with betrayed me. She left me for some popular girls at school. I am so broken right now that I can't even explain it in words. My heart pains, it is so painful for me.... I wanna leave this world forever, how could someone leave you after you have been with them all your life. Am I that worthless??"

Y/n : Hannah why have you been ignoring me? I wait for you after class everyday but you are never there.
Hannah *sighs* : I don't want us to be friends anymore, because of you everyone makes fun of me, you are such a nerd.
Y/n : But we have been together since kindergarten.
Hannah : I don't care, what have I gotten being with you all these years... Honestly just leave me alone now, for fucks sake you are so clingy.

Diary from 2017

"10-March-2017
Dear Diary:
They are gone now....forever. They left me in this hell hole all alone to suffer from the toxic lifestyle their son and his wife have provided me with. The only light in my dull house has gone out, there is no place for love in my heart. I wanna leave with them, who would make me tasty food now? Who would get me my favorite snacks now? Who would read me bedtime stories now? Who would take me on a trip now *tear drop stain on the page* I miss them so much."