Virgil's POV:
I woke up, and look at my arms...there are scars from other night, because I had a mental breakdown, and it calmed me down. I suffer from GAD, and I haven't been doing so good lately. My thoughts of suicide were more intense, and ussualy it's hard for me to distract from them, and I feel like giving up.
I get out of bed and go to the bathroom. my eyes are red, from crying so much. I havent been able to find any eyedrops.. "oh my god, fuck this. They're going to think im doing weed or something" I said. I went to the shower, and turned it on. I got scared, because the water was extremly cold, so I turned it down like a normal person would do. After the shower, I went out and brushed my teeth and style my hair. "Damn, I'll probably get bullied for this again" after styling my hair, I had to pick my clothes.
"Hmm, I could put on my MCR shirt, and jacket, I'd say thats a good option" I didn't had time for breakfast, so I just skipped it, and went outside.
The bus was already there, so I didn't had to even wait.
I looked at all the people, that I knew, and I noticed a new person. I sat next to them, since they seemed friendly, and also kinda nerdy, but who cares.
New kid:"Hello, I'm Logan, and I use they/he pronouns, what about you?"
I got anxious, and responded with:"I'm he/him and I use Virgil pronouns!"
Virgil's mind:"FUCK, I MESSED THAT UP"
Logan:"Hahah, okay he/him" Logan said jokingly
*Virgil put his face in his hands because of embarassmeng*
Logan:"Don't worry, I was just joking, which I don't participate in that often"
Virgil:"Yeah hahah."
We both arived to the school, and had our first class togheter wich was math class. I wasn't really able to focus, because I kept looking at Logan. I didn't really know what kind of feeling is that, but Logan somehow fascinated me? His lips seem soft...I wonder how it would feel like if I'd...
*the bell rang*
Logan:"Hey Virge, I was just wondering-"
I got scared, and panicked
Virgil:"UHMM, I HAVE TO GO, BYE-"
I ran, I was stressed, and shaking, I don't know what has gotten into me, but now im out of the class now, meaning I'm feeling better, but not really...I put my hand in my left pocket, and I found a lolipop in there, wich was good, because candy ussualy helps me to calm down. I kinda struggled to open it, but i still manadged to do it. I put it in my mouth, and then I also turned on my mp3 player. I also realized I forgot to took my anxiety meds, so I'm hoping I'll be fine.
I pushed myself against my locker, and I thought about what happend in the classroom, and what I could've do to not make it that awkward. I felt a tap on my shoulder, so I took one of my earphones out, and turned my head on the direction i felt the tap
it was Logan.
Logan:"Hey Virge, right? you forgot your math book in class"
fuck, I embarassed myself again.
Virgil:"Oh, thanks babe"
Logan:"What? Could you repeat that?"
what was that, why did I even say it..?Why do I keep messing up things so much today, I'm just doing everything wrong,
Logan:"Uhm..Hello? You there Virge?"
Virgil:"Oh! Uhm yeah, i said Thanks Logan"
Logan:"Oh, okay you're welcome"
they started going away from Virge
Virgil:"Uhm, Logan, wait"
Logan:"Yeah? Do you need something?"
Virgil:"Yeah, i just wanted to ask you for your number"
Logan:"Oh yeah sure it's XXX-XXXX"
Virgil:"Thanks, I'll call you as soon as it'll be possible"
