ᵃᶠᵗᵉʳ ᵈᵃʳᵏ

𝒕𝒘𝒐

beep! beep!

I groan as I hit my alarm, it shut off. I should have slept in. But i was on a routine. It triggers every time school comes back. Something that i naturally got used to.

I got dressed. I needed to look impressionable didn't i? Or at least decent enough for school. Mom grinned proudly."you look so pretty, sweetheart! Your father's already working but i have time."

"Mom, I groan. She chuckled, handing me the keys. I can drive to school just fine. But sometimes she doesn't like me being independent and drives. I get it, she doesn't want to see me grow up. That's a natural feeling.

I get to the huge high school and park. Then enter the building. Keep calm, y/n, I thought to myself. How could i be? a new start to school. And having to make friends all over again. Not so fun.

I enter the office, so i could get my schedule. The office lady seemed nice. "How could I can help you, dear? She asked. I nervously replied, "I um, could i have my schedule please?"

"Name?"

"Y/n L/n."

She nodded, going somewhere. I had plenty of time, i think. i didn't know. I drove here early, i hoped. i saw not many cars so i knew i was early.

The office lady comes back."Here's your schedule, dear. Have a good first day." I nodded. I doubted that I'd actually have a good day.

I found my classroom and the teacher was apparently named Mr. Paulson, I don't know, it said that on the door. So I sat in the way back, that way I'd go unnoticed. That's the important part.

Unfortunately though, as soon as kids flooded in, Mr Paulson stood up, and made an announcement. "Now everyone, calm down, I have some news. He said.

Oh my fucking god.

If I blame anyone, I blame Mom. She moved here, so, she made me switch schools. I could feel everyone's eyes locked in on me.

"We have a new student, Mr. Paulson."Y/n, would you please introduce yourself?" I stand up, even though I didn't want to.

"Hi, I'm... Y/n, I say hesitantly. Subtly, He pushes me to say more. "I like art and anything creative in general." I sit back down so fast.

Being new is horrible.

This was a reason why moving was a awful idea. But it's too late now. Only advantage was that I didn't have to do the work given. Being new has its perks I guess.

But I drifted off fast from the lesson. Reminding me of F/N. She wasn't my only friend, but my best friend. In fact, we did pretty much everything together. we grew up together, so of course we did.

"Miss L/n, Mr. Paulson said. "You fell sleep." I hear chuckles, before nodding. "Sorry, Sir. I..." "I understand, you're new, and no disrespect." he said in the direction of the people who chuckled.

That was so embarrassing I just wanted to crawl into a hole and stay there forever. The bell rang, indicating that class was over. Thank fucking god. I had been waiting for it to end.

However, as soon as I stepped out and began walking to my locker, four boys were eyeing me. I was confused. Had I done something wrong already? Was my outfit ugly? Which, it probably was not going to lie.

Many thoughts popped in my mind. Most being insecure ones. I'm going to not lie and say i'm confident. i'm not. So, i didn't really think logically. I simply ignore them. I enter my next class.

It was more boring and as usual, had to introduce myself. Though it was swift and I just said my name this time. Even if the teacher wanted me to say more.

I already had this morning and I was literally done. Already, and it was only my second class. I grew hungry as my stomach growled. I didn't focus, and didn't have to do work either, so it didn't matter that much.

- -

I entered the cafeteria, it was huge. And I gulp, feeling intimidated. I mean, where you could sit when millions of kids were? You wouldn't obviously find somewhere to sit if nobody wanted you to.

so, i found somewhere in the back. mostly empty. so, i didn't feel bad for sitting down. i examine my surroundings. i could see some cliques. popular kids, unpopular kids, alternative kids. but one stood out.

four boys were siting nearby. i recognized them. i had seen them earlier. i look down, avoiding eye contact, i knew i wouldn't make friends on my first day. i'm shy, i would rather let someone introduce themselves. sounds rude, or whatever, but my social anxiety is really bad.

mom told me to be positive, but positivity... was hard. especially with mason's death. and that was his motto pretty much.

after lunch, several missing posters appeared. oh my god. how many were gone? I feel really bad for them and their families. it's tragic.

as i walked, i feel someone follow me, then a whistle. that creepy kind, i turn, it was a tall, lanky boy, with dark hair, he had a few friends. of course, the ones who were staring earlier.

"hello, i simply say, my voice monotone. "may i help you?" he nodded. i sigh. his friend shoves him. "oh my god, patrick. hey there, gorgeous." i had a bad feeling. "hi, i replied, before simply walking off. however, i must have made them pissed, because they ran behind me.

in school? really?

avoiding making a scene, i headed in the bathroom. girls one, obviously. i pant, locking the stall, remaining in the bathroom. i hear them pound on the door. "come on out! henry exclaimed. i guess nobody here cares?

of course not.

seeing the window, i have some hope. it was open too. i throw my backpack onto the grass, then climb out. i sigh of relief, secretly heading back to class, doing the smart way.

sure I might as well just see them again, but at least I'd not be marked absent and get in trouble with mom and dad.