Abuse Poems.

Conversations With God.

Hello Dear Jesus,

It's been a long, long time.

I hope that you still know me, 

I've been hiding quite awhile.

I know that you know all things

Still, I think I should explain,

The reason I've been hiding

Is because of all the shame.

I know that I don't look so great

For meeting up with you 

But I hope you understand 

I've been alone since I was eight.

You probably see the dirt marks

And smudges on my face

But it seems no matter how I try

Some things can't be erased.

They say that eyes are windows 

That peer into the soul.

I'm afraid that if you look there,

You'll find it dark and cold.

I'm not sure why it is, Lord,

But you won't see any tears.

I guess they've just been locked up

Inside me all these years.

I know that limp and lifeless 

Is my unruly hair.

I guess that's just what happens

When no one really cares.

And if you ask a question 

I won't have much to say. 

I've found that no one really wants 

To hear me anyway.

And if you care to listen,

Sit quiet and you'll hear

How hard my heart is pounding. 

That's because of all the fear.

You'll notice that I wrap my arms 

Around me all the time.

I do that for protection 

Of the things that should be mine.

See, not so very long ago,

Without an ounce of care,

Someone took away from me

Things I never meant to share.

And if you find I tremble

When you come close to me, 

It's because of all the dreadful things 

That someone did to me.

Jesus I'm so sorry 

If these things have saddened you.

But when I cried out to you

You never told me what to do.

I know that in my mother's womb 

You created me

And I can't help but wonder

Is this what I was meant to be?

They say that you are everywhere,

With each and every one,

But it seems that on those dark nights 

You left me all alone.

They tell me that you love me

And I suppose it's true,

But Jesus, please remember

That he said he loved me too.