butterflies.
Na-experience mo na ba yung feeling na parang may butterflies ka sa stomach?. Well, if you haven't, I can tell you.
It feel's amazing, like the feeling you get when you finally got what you wanted for so long? and the relieving feeling of passing a test you worked hard reviewing for? Like coming back home after a bad day at school, with hot cocoa and cookies waiting for you at the counter table. These are just some of the things I can compare feeling butterflies on to, but whenever I'm close to him, Ifeel like the butterflies never leave my stomach.
So let me tell you the story on how this puppy love came to be.
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January 1, 2022 at exactly 2:16 am, I recieved a text message
" hoy gising kapaba? "
he asked
to which I respond with
" oo, bkt? "
" may gusto lang sana ako tanongin-
wag ka magugulat ha? "
" oki. "
I think I know where this is going.. I thought to myself.
" gusto mo ba ako? please just tell me if oo or hindi. "
Oo, for such a long time na, yes..
But..
There's something that stopped me from typing that.
My mother.
My mom never liked me having a crush, and she doesn't like me idolizing male idol's too. Telling me that I'd be a dissapointment if I had one, whenever the topic of having a crush come's up during family dinner's. So I knew that if she caught any wind about this confession, I'd be in big trouble. So even if it pains me to do this, I have to do it.
" I'm so sorry, but I want to focus on my studies, so I can't returt your feelings just yet. "
" You said yet right? so there's still a chance for me in the future? "
" Yes, but it's such a long wait. There are so many other girls out there you could choose from.. Are you willing to wait? For me? "
" I'm willing to wait, I'd wait a thousand years, if it meant that I could be with you in the future. "
If mom catches wind about this confession I'd be done for.. Thought's race through my head, thinking of all the possiblities if she ever DID get wind of this conversation.
Well I guess only time will tell..
>:))
