Vanessa

Life is a bitch sometimes you just have to go back and realise how fake the whole universe is...
Broken hearts

Most of us wrestle with being lonely. I swear to god if there's anything I want right now, it would be....
I hear a knock outside.
"Debbie?! " No answer.
No answer? Great, coz I've got lots of stuff to do.
I open my laptop. Its coming to six. That gives me three hours before bed.

knock! Knock!

I want to say, "Who the fuck is there? " but then it could be mom.
"I'm coming. " I say now angry someone has been waiting outside all this time.

My peephole shows a robust figure of a male creature... sharp nose, dark grey eyes.... Oh my fucking god.... Tell me it's not Mike....
"I'm over you... Everything over... "
But I don't want to sound nervous, I gently smile. Poor Mike smiles again...
He thinks I forgave his ass... Hell no.
I bang the door shut, fake dealing 991 in the instant.

"I can explain everything, please. Just let me in... "
I can't help but laugh at the irony.... Who's crying now?

Life is a mystery. When we separate or part ways, we try as much as we can to hurt the other person. It feels so fucking good.... To feel needed, wanted and cried for.... It gives you power in an instant.... This Mike shit sleeping with my sister, Brah....

"Fuck off," I finally say as I see him limping down the aisle. He must be missing me badly.... I'm gonna let him know how it feels to be hurt.

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To be strong, you've got to read your energy and see what happens... Some of those you call friends are just putting you off the ladder...you've got to realise the inner you.