September 7th, 1991
Dear Diary,
It's bad. How I'm feeling is bad.
Eloise.
She's constantly on my mind. Her beauty is unreal. Eloise has the sort of smile that's contagious. When she laughs, everyone else does. She's kind and outgoing. Always trying to include everybody. When Draco is teasing someone, she's the first to shut it down and then always checks in with the kid whenever she sees them.
That's the kindness I aspire to obtain. You know, sometimes I'm scared I'll end up like like my parents.
My mother is Bellatrix Lestrange, if you didn't know already. I haven't seen in her in a while. She's been in Askaban and my father wants nothing to do with her. Not that he's much better. Narcissa insisted that I visited him before I start at Hogwarts. I went for her. She's as close to a mother that I'll have, even if she's my Aunt.
When I visited him, he didn't exactly seem thrilled to see me. We made small talk before all his friends showed up which instantly took his attention away from me. I should've expected it. The night ended as it always does, him and his stupid colleagues drunk and me returning to the Malfoy's.
I wish I just had normal parents like everyone else. Draco doesn't even realise that we're cousins yet. Per my father's request of course.
I'm never going to be like him. When I have children one day, I will shower them will love. They will never feel the way my father makes me feel. Maybe Eloise and I will get married one day?
Probably not actually.
She's quickly become my best friend and I don't think she will ever see past that.
There's Lucille and Onyx there too.
All the girls are gorgeous. Onyx has beautiful blue eyes that contrast perfectly with her dark hair. Lucille too has gorgeous eyes but green. The type of green no one else has. She's beautiful.
But Onyx belongs to Blaise.
Lucille; she's stunning but I think that's all I'll feel for her.
Who knows? I've a long 6 years ahead of me. I've only been here for about a week.
I think that's it for today. I'll check in later
- Lorenzo Charles Berkshire
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"So you're really taking that diary thing serious?" Blaise chuckled, as he shut the door behind him.
"I thought you said you wanted to do it too?" I replied, sliding the journal under my pillow.
"I just said I wanted one so I didn't look like a douche in front of the girls," Blaise said, jumping onto his bed.
"It's more fun than you'd think. All the girls are using theirs," I shrugged.
"Onyx too?"
"Yes, especially Onyx".
"Maybe I will then," He smiled to himself as he untied his shoes.
"Where's Malfoy?" I asked.
"He wanted to show Eloise that throwing stuff off the astronomy tower is fun and the girls tagged along".
"You didn't want to go?"
"I came to see you my friend," Blaise grinned, jumping onto his bed.
"Why?"
"Because Malfoy is too proud to talk about the girls and I wanted your opinion on something," Blaise spoke quietly.
"What is it?"
"What do you think of Onyx?" Blaise questioned.
"For you?" I laughed.
"Sure. Let's put it like that".
"She's cool but if you like her, I don't think it's worth it to potentially mess up your friendship already," I sighed.
"You don't think she has any interest in me?"
"No but we're in first year. You have plenty of time to see where you two will go," I explained.
"Yeah. You're right. What about you?"
"What about me?"
"Anyone in particular?"
Yes.
"No," I lied.
"Can I borrow a feather and some ink?" Blaise asked.
I got up from my bed, grabbing some supplies from my drawer, "Here".
"Thanks," He shyly smiled, moving over to his bed.
Septemer 7th, 1991
Dear Journal,
If I can't say every word I was thinking to Lorenzo, I can say it to you right?
Onyx. Onyx De Loughrey.
I've never had a crush like this before. There's just something so enticing about her. Her confidence, her smile, her mischievousness. It's hard to remember we're only 11. In a few years, I'll win her over. When we're older, I'll treat her right.
After you diary, Enzo is the only person I can easily talk about this stuff to. He's definitely in touch with feelings. I want to be as open as him and not give a care in the world about what others will say about me.
Draco makes it hard. He makes you feel like a pussy if you try and have any mature conversation. He's very immature himself. He is my friend though at the end of the day. He's a good mate but he still has a lot to learn.
I can't stop thinking about what the sorting hat said at the ceremony. Even at Hogwarts everyone knows what Mum's reputation. She is a beautiful lady and has been married, well a few times but I love her and it just felt like it was shaming her.
Yes I'm getting annoyed about a hat's comment but it's not just the hat. I know what people say about her, even if she doesn't tell me herself. I've heard everybody's stupid theories too.
I'm not sure what I believe.
She wouldn't want to hurt anyone, right?
Moving on..
Is Lorenzo right?
Yes we are just in first year and have plenty of time ahead of us but there's something special about Onyx. I feel it!
Or maybe it is just a silly little crush. I can get over it. Seem like I have to.
- Blaise Zabini
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