When I was a little girl, I was always shy and quiet. People tried talking to me and I shyly talked back. That went on for awhile. When I hit the end of middle school I was even more shy, I had one friend. When I hit high school, I became depressed. I had a lot of emotional shit going on. My dad was hitting me, I was being put down constantly by family, I had panic attacks every week. But I turned to music for help. I listened to Skillet, Underoath, Flyleaf, and Attack Attack! mostly. I wore all black, and I kept to myself. Eventually I made a few friends. But that soon turned bad. Two of my friends were dating, and I was put in the middle of the problems they were having. To top that off, a few of my other friends hated eachother. Then I was failing a lot of classes and I was getting made fun of. It was very stressful. I turned to cutting, and I didn't hide it. I became a loner halfway through my freshman year of high school. But I became as the emo loner girl to a lot of people. I was more quiet, keeping to myself, writing poems about how bad I was. I was like that until I graduated high school. It was horrible. I'm still a loner, and I'm still emo, or goth, or whatever people are calling me. My depression increased 10x worse. I'm cutting again. I have lost a lot of people from friendships, relationships, and suicide. It gets worse every time.
