Part 5 - My covenant
My Pastor asked me to join him... where???
in PALAWAN T____T
for two long weeks...
ewan parang gusto kong umayaw. kaso... siguro this is how i will fulfill my covenant ...
masakit... pero dapat..
mahirap... pero kelangan..
malungkot... pero TAMA..
i'm packing my things now.. kasi mamayang gabi aalis na ko. -______- kelangan kong magmadali kasi.. pupuntahan ko pa si Louise... malay mo di ba? gumising siya pagdating ko..
eto na naman ako...
umaasa..
naghihintay...
masakit mang isipin kaso, ito lang naman ang magagawa ko ehhh. =(
i bring our pictures together..
weeeeee.
napatingin nga ako sa kwarto ko eh.. nandito pa yung picture namin dalawa na poster.
Highschool....
can we just go back in Highschool...
can we go back from the start?
yung start na.. hindi na masasaktan si Louise... kasi. itatama ko lahat...
kaso..
everything JUST HAPPENED...
tama nga...
THERE IS NEVER ENOUGH TIME TO IT RIGHT, BUT THERE'S,ALWAYS ENOUGH TIME, TO DO IT OVER..
.. nagmamadali akong pumunta ng ospital.. okay lang sana di ba?
kung pag nasa palawan ako, tatawag ako at sasagot siya...
okay lang sana kung napapakinabangan ko ang teknolohiya, na isang pindot lang makikita at makakausap ko na siya..
kaso HINDI. -______- mahirap...
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andito na ko sa hospital..
hawak sa kamay sa Louise... padating pa lang daw sila tita ee.
"Louise... you know what hurts the most?"
i sighed. pretending she replied me with a 'NO'.. sakit namang isipin.. umaasa ko at nagpapanggap na sumasagot siya. para kong baliw..
"its , having you here, but enable to talk to you..."
"holding you this tight, yet you're not holding me back... "
"touching you this gentle, yet its hurting me not just a little.. "
"memorizing your face but not feeling your embrace.."
"and having a chance a to be with you, while watching my heart breaks waiting for you to wake up, WITH NO CLUE =("
i touched her face.. "yun ang masakit Louise.. sana alam mo kung gaano nababasag yung puso ko, pag nakikita ko yung nurse na aayusin ang mga makina na ginagamit para mapatuloy ang paghinga mo.. =( kung paano ako lubusang nasasaktan pag nararamdaman kong gustong gusto mo ng bumitaw.. kung paano ko nahihirapan pag nawawalan na kong pag asa pag naiiwan ka ditong mag iisa.. louise... ansakit sakit.. "
umiiyak na naman ako... yumuko ako at umubob dun sa kama niya..
habang hawak yung kamay niya...
habang yung kamay niya hindi nakahawak sa kamay ko =(
di ko namalayan ...
nakatulog pala ko..
Louise POV
i can feel him... i know he's here.... andito siya... pinipilit kong ibukas nag mata ko, kaso.. ansakit... di ko kaya =((
i can feel him... he holds my hand...
"Louise... you know what hurts the most?" his voice.. i know its him.. =((
"its , having you here, but enable to talk to you..."nasasaktan ako.. =(( parang na feel kong anlaki kong walang kwenta.. na ni magawang buksan ang mata ko, di ko pa kaya...
"holding you this tight, yet you're not holding me back... " if only i can.. i would.. i want to move my hands.. yet all i can feel is the numbness of the freaking hands..
"touching you this gentle, yet its hurting me not just a little.. memorizing your face but not feeling your embrace..and having a chance a to be with you, while watching my heart breaks waiting for you to wake up, WITH NO CLUE =("
he paused.
"yun ang masakit Louise.. sana alam mo kung gaano nababasag yung puso ko, pag nakikita ko yung nurse na aayusin ang mga makina na ginagamit para mapatuloy ang paghinga mo.. =( kung paano ako lubusang nasasaktan pag nararamdaman kong gustong gusto mo ng bumitaw.. kung paano ko nahihirapan pag nawawalan na kong pag asa pag naiiwan ka ditong mag iisa.. louise... ansakit sakit.. "
nanahimik yung room... ewan ko... baa nakatulog siya???
binuhos ko lahat ng lakas ko...
kaya ko toh...
i pressed his hands...
I DID IT!!!! but after that...
i felt sudden pain...
pain in everything..
maybe pain that's caused by heartaches and physical pains...
after all....
there are just TWO things that I CAN POSSIBLY FEEL...
PAIN....
and his LOVE...
ELD'S POV
i opened my eyes and felt something...
HINAWAKAN NIYA YUNG KAMAY KO!
KUMAPIT SIYA...
sapat na to para sa dalawang linggo..
tumayo ako... at gumayak para umalis..
i looked at her..
and then..
see tears from her eyes..
she can actually feel it..
she has heard everything...
