Hate&Love

Chapter 1~Did I deserve it?

Imagine living a life from the point of view of a teen,well now you'll get a chance to live one with ur own eyes with a bit of drama and love shit lol.
but let's start already so enjoy guys...
(point of view from a diary)(not real)
MAIN CHARACTER LUNA
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-Dear diary,
Shit it's 6pm,I just woke up to my parents fighting again...as always but hey it's also the first day of summer break hot girl summer here I come duhhh gotta enjoy it-
I quickly get up make my way to the bathroom to wash at my face but I look at myself at the mirror staring at those eyebags from sleeping too much but can't blame me I'm always so tired
"LUNA WHATS TAKING YOU SO LONG WE NEED THE BATHROOM TOO" I hear my mom yellin so I snap out of it wash my face and go back to my room to look something to wear out today with my friends.
I wear some shorts and a long baggy shirt fishnets and i'm ready to go,I feel so happy to finally go out and be off from school.
Omw to meeting my friends Sara and Flavia to our usual park near the famous skatepark where all the cool people go to or at least that's what i think but that doesn't matter I arrived I see them waiting for me i'm always so late they gonna kill me.
"Hey I'm sorry for being late you know the alarm doesn't work"
"Yeah dw nothing new girl let's go sit I got some maddddd gossip about my ex"Sara says excited
"Yeah let's go my legs killing"Flavia
We make our way to our usual spot inside the park at the end of it in a corner near an old fountain with no water in it,we sit on the low walls put some music on to listen to as we talk.
"Sooo what happened with your ex" I ask
"There is so much going on with my ex right now I don't even know where to start"Sara says
"Just say it we need our daily dose of gossip"Flavia says while laughing
I laugh along with her and nod at Sara to talk
"Turns put my ex been talking shit about me to others while replacing me with the walmart version of me"Sara says annoyed
I zone out as she talks,I can't seem to focus on what she saying all I hear are sounds but they aren't clear
I can't help but think about the love I wish I had
"EARTH TO LUNAAA"Flavia screams at my face
"CHILLL NO NEED TO YELL" I say then they go back to gossiping
*my stomach growls*
they both laugh and ask "C'mon let's go get you something to eat and you better not complain about getting fat cause we'll beat you up"
"Yeah I won't complain but do you mind if I stay im too lazy"
"No worries just wait for us we'll go to the small shop  down the corner here"
I nod as they take their stuff and leave
I lay down and look around me but I noticed I caught someone eye,he looks like a pedophile I feel so uncomfortable right now he keeps staring at me with that ugly grind on his face,whatever what a weirdo.
I take out my phone and start looking for some relaxing music to listen to while I wait for them,oh no my bag fell,I get off the wall and grab it but before I could turn around I felt a presence behind me
I don't understand were Sara and Flavia already back?
I quickly turn around with a smile on my face thinking it's them...my smile quickly fades as soon as I notice who it was...

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK I scream in my mind

There is that man that was staring at me right in front of me he is so close to me I feel uncomfortable,I try to get out of his way and move to another place but he moves in front of me whatever direction i would turn to "Sorry sir,mind letting me go" I say but no answer I look around seeking for help,no one around
I try to grab my phone from the wall to call my friends but I can't move the phone too far from me and he isn't letting me move I try to move again but he pushes me turns me around and I feel his stinky breathe on my neck
"GOD NO NO PLEASE" I say helpless as I try to get away but with no success...
I felt his hand going around my body,I feel so stupid right now,he is touching me where not even my boyfriend touched me yet,I'm crying for help yet there is no one around
I think "this is it?is this the time i'm gonna get raped"
I felt him slowly trying to lowdown my shorts I try to hold back but he was too big for me and I was just there in a corner helpless then suddenly my phone rings
He stops for a second I see him looking at my phone I try to take it but he pushes it away and now I got no way out
From far I can hear my friends laughter,they are coming back,the man quickly leaves god knows where then i crash on the floor and try to act like nothing happened to not worry my friends after all I never been good at opening up
"LUNAAA WE GOT YOU YOUR FAVORITE DRINKKKK" I hear them screaming from far,I sigh take a few deep breaths and try to calm down but I feel so disgusted by myself,someone touched me and that made me feel so gross I couldn't bare myself but I had to act cool about it.
They finally arrive and sit "We tried calling you to ask what you wanted to eat but you didn't answer"
I say with a defatted look on my face "Yeah sorry I was too into the music to answer" they roll their eyes at me and laugh "As always" "Here eat we gotta carry on the gossip"
Once again I find myself zoning out as they talk,I couldn't stop thinking about what had just happened,am I such a bad person that God sent me my punishment? but no one seems to notice ever when i'm not doing okay maybe that's one of the main reasons why I don't wanna open up to anyone but at least I got my boyfriend,I'll talk to him as soon as I get home and he'll definitely cuddle me and help me relax.
Before I could even notice it was time to go home so I find myself again going home listening to music trying to pushing my thoughts out of the way so I don't drown in my own thoughts

I'm finally home,I throw myself on the bed and take off the clothes i was wearing staring deeply at them trying to understand if they were to blame,were they the reason I got harassed?I can't understand why it happened to me out of everyone...
I take my phone,go on insta and text my boyfriend saying we have to talk(we'll call him brandon)
"hey uh...I need to talk to you"I typed
"Yeah babe? wassup" brandon says
"Something happened today while I was out and I really need you to comfort me"
"What happened are you okay?"
*I tell him everything that happened with the details*
he is typing,he is taking so long ugh
"what were you wearing?"
I think to myself so my clothes were to blame?
"just baggy shirt fishnets and shorts"
"You should stay home and not go out for a while"
I feel him getting mad over the messages
"Also don't wear fishnets again you know you gonna get sexualized especially if you wear shorts"
I sigh I love fishnets but maybe we was right then suddenly he sent me a message that made my heart drop-
"It makes me mad that he touched you before me"
I probably took it the wrong way but it seems to me like he cared more about him touching me places where he didn't touch me yet and not if i'm okay.
I need a break,i turn off my phone and just go to sleep