So it's 7:05 right now and my brain is at full power. It is also feb 11 2013. you wont be able read this until later on when i create this. It was a good idea to sleep early my body just shut down. I was able to sleep not really well but I woke up a couple of times but went back to sleep in like 5 minutes. At this moment the only picture inside my head is this. I am a person I have a pet bird. If I open this cage. Will this bird ever come back? I said here you go bird go fly! I look at it because I enjoyed my time with this bird. This bird is gonna find new people and enjoy those people. A new land a new sky. I only tended this bird until her wounds were healed just enough to fly back into the world. I look at her fly away and say to myself please don't forget me.
You say that your not gonna but watch these are my words. One day I'm gonna just slip out of your mind. And your gonna be fine to be able to move on and it's gonna be ok for me. I really want what's best for you. So please keep walking if God allows our paths to cross again so be it. I will probably cry until there is no tomorrow out of joy. If not he gives and takes away but still blessed be his name.
That was yesterday and today is feb 11 later that night it's 10 45 just read that email once again. I'm afraid but it's gonna be ok God is with me. I know what's coming even though its gonna hurt really hard. I think right now I'm glad I'm listening to hillsongs untied because its calming me down at this moment. I'm not as scared yeah I can be worried but God is with me even when I can't feel his presence but right now I feel Him hugging me. So I won't be afraid anymore. Before I sleep I need to pray too because I can't always be afraid but I trust these next couple of months are gonna be hard. I see that when you overcome these trails a path of light will shine. I was reading the first two letter you wrote me and I smiled and feel peace. Like you said I am a beautiful creation of God and so are you. I'm glad your mother said to pray that's what you need most right now. I'm glad she is gonna contact me on Wednesday scared yes piss my pants no. Whatever happens it happens haha =).
Haha enough about that let's see. As I was reading those letters I decided to save the rest for a later time. Wow so much happened i realized. But whatever happens its gonna happen. Only time will tell where we are headed. God please all I ask watch this young lady because she needs you. Lord be with her because she knows you. God please teach her and just love her. In your time lord everything will be fine. I'm not worried because she is in better hands haha. =)
You know I will keep this short I never did stop praying for you so you need to start praying for yourself too ok. Work hard and talk to you in the future if God and by your mothers permission haha. Hmmm =) also did you know 50% of all diseases are caused by stress. Not by illness. But by stress found that very interesting. Like only people who are very stressed grind their teeth thats what my prof said. So pray for your family too because their stressed out too. Pray for yourself too. Also I will be fine I will focus all this negative energy by Gods power into positiveness for Jhm hmmm time to finish James pov by the end of the week ok
