Beautifully Tainted (cielois fic)

Chapter 2 This Isnt Just A Phase, Right?

Alois woke you his pillow was wet the certains had been opened and breakfast was on his nightstand. Claude left a note saying "Your Highness, you looked really tired and I didn't want to wake you, I am in town taking care duties, like you ordered me to, the other servants are down stairs if you need anything. I'll be back in a couple hours." Alois then stretched trying to wake up fully, he stared at the breakfast. 'I wonder how old it is?…' then he three the plate across the room. "Hannah! Come clean this up and make me a new breakfast!" Hannah rushed up the stairs quickly cleaning up the mess, alois' face was emotionless. He was kinda jealous of Hannah and really didn't want to admit it……before Hannah left the room his eyes darted over "Hannah, did I tell you to leave?" Hannah looked down and she look her head quickly. "Hannah, dress me now!" Hannah quickly rushed over getting his clothes out from the dresser and dressing him "Alright, now make me a breakfast, you stupid tart…" Hannah was kinda relieved he didn't abuse her. Alois sat there, the thoughts were still there …they were going anywhere. 'Ciel fucking phantomhive, who would have thought. Your the one I want the most you, but why…' his eyes softened softened ,he began to think. Thinking never turned out well for him, unfortunately. 'I don't see any other man being with and man…is there something wrong with me?...' but that's when he thought of the previous Earl, who had violated, him took his virginity, and took the very little remaining innocent he had desperately clutched onto until he'd forcefully taken it away from him. He felt like he wanted to cry the pain ,the memories 'Well he liked being with younger men, does it mean it's normal to be attracted to men?' Alois clutched his head, all the thoughts tearing at the seams he was way beyond damaged, he was destroyed