Our life has been very different from each other,
Your life was filmed every moment, but I knew it wasn't always how it looked like, it wasn't you, that's what you said, through the songs you sang as an individual, from those translated lyrics, all i could conclude was that It was a character, It was not the complete you at least, it was someone the audience liked to see, someone Perfect...
The life I had was all simple and normal, but not so normal at the same time, of course, i didn't have to be filmed all the time, i could live like a normal person..
But I didn't..
I didn't do it the usual way, I did have the humanly desires... earning money, going to certain places, having the dream job, etc. I did do that, but the thing that changes every aspect of the existing, the strongest emotion, the most sublime virtue, the deepest relationship..
Love..., I did it different..
Not like any other love story is mine, I have it all tangled and messed up, i don't know why do i even love him, but i do, i never regretted doing so, ever since I've known what love is,..it has been him, or can i say I still don't know the meaning of love nobody ever explained what is, but if i had to define what love is... for me.. i'd say the entity i feel when i see him, when i listen to his voice, when he smiles like the shining stars, when he's happy, when its probably just anything about him, witnessing all these...
It just feels right... it's perfect!! for me... he is all i could ever ask for
and it's different for others, they think it's impossible falling for someone you can never have...for someone so far away...for someone who doesn't even know about your existence...
But i don't know how... it felt possible, it felt like him and i as one.. could be possible, it would happen, that is what i would always think of, but even if it didn't happen, if nothing like that exists, i would never back off
Although It has been difficult explaining my needs, my interests, my love life, myself... simply everything about me has been very different, so it's hard for others to understand me, not that i care!! about people!!
But it's very difficult sometimes...
Well, not being able to confess, must be it, difficult!!
we had life differently,
but still, it was all the same...
I had it all planned, I promised myself to love him the same or even more as time passes
even if we don't ever meet, even if he finds a love interest, even if every reason for me to not love him as much arises,
i will dare the whole astral system to test my tie with this man, even if he doesn't love me back...
i'll never break this promise...at least that's what I thought ...
but who knew a dream of mine could sabotage my heart this way......
