My sunshine

part 5

                           2 hr later
                             
                      Shinsou's pov
   
 About 2 hours go by and Kami is already knocked out like he said he would be. 
Blanket  hiding his body just showing his head.  I take this moment to gaze at him. Looking over his soft features- is that dry blood by his nose? Besides the black eye and busted lip, he's still as handsome as ever. Wtf am I thinking?

 I stand up cracking my back before grabbing his laptop. I write a note and walk out the door to my dorm. 

"Hey little listener. Can we talk?" I froze in my tracks. His voice was raspy and it cracked. 

"yes." I say turning around to face him.

"Son, I am very worried about your dad. He's been avoiding me. Is there a reason why?"
 
"I don't know honestly. This past morning he seemed off like he was worried about something. Try talking to him, I'm sure he doesn't want to be away from you." I suggest in a calm voice.

"That's the thing he won't stay in a room with me long enough for me to ask him what's wrong." Pa's voice getting more worried with each word. 

"Want me to try to talk to him?"

"you don't have to do that Hito-"

"He's my dad. Blood or not and if there is something wrong I'm going to try to figure it out!" 

"I know my boy I know. I just don't want you to miss out on having fun as a teenager. You can't put everyone one else before you."

"I know. Should we both try to find and talk to dad?"  Pa nods and we head off to a nearby beach. 

"God I hope he's here!" Pa says. We walked along the sand looking for my father. Pa nudges my arm and points to a figure which seems to be sitting alongside the shore. 

"I'll try to talk to him first. If he doesn't seem to have the intention to run we will have a conversation. I'll leave and after a bit you can talk to him. " Pa nods and plops down in the sand where we were standing. I salute and walk over to dad.

"Hey dad. Whatcha doing out here?" I say sitting down next to him.

"You shouldn't be out here this late. Go back inside. You are breaking school policy." 

"Chill out! I can't sleep so I came here and I saw you. Can't we just sit together?" 

" I guess ya knucklehead."  We sit and watch the ocean swishing peacefully

"I love you." 

"Love u too, my boy." I lean against him and wrap one arm around him. We sat there just watching the water sway for 5-8 minutes.

"You should try to get some sleep. Go on get inside!" he tickles my side. 

"Hahaha ok ok ok I'm going!" I get up and walk to pa and tell him how to time the approach. Damn It sounds like were in a fucking cop show! Anyway about 5 minutes go by and Pa walks over to the spot i was once sitting at. 
        
                        Hizashi's pov

" Hey babe! Can I sit?" 

"Really you got our son into this? I can't Fucking believe you!-"

"Seeing you like this hurts me! I can't let you torture yourself !"  

"Leave." 

"Shota, what did I do wrong? Just tell me, I want to help"

"Leave me the fuck alone Hizashi! " 

"I'm not leaving until I know you're okay!" 

"Fine if I tell you, will you just shut up?" I nod, he takes a deep breath before talking again.

" The adoption agency wants to talk to Hitoshi in person. I'm worried if they see him and think there's something wrong because of his insomnia. What if they take him away?" 

I'm shocked by his words. I didn't know the agency visited home after this long. 

"He has been getting better, remember? I promise you everything is ok. They will not take our son away from us. "

 I kneel down and hug Shota. He hugs me back and places his head in the crook of my neck. 

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have acted like this. I should have just told you when they called."

"It's alright because we will work this out together. " I loosen our hug and kiss him. It was short but you could feel the true love in it.

"Wanno go back inside?" He nodded and I  stood up. I put my hand out for him to grab, which he did. With my hand in his and our fingers intertwined we walked over to shinsou. 

" Dad, Pa, is everything good now?" Before I could register what he said Shota let go of my hand and bear hugged Hitoshi.

" I don't want to lose you, son."

" What "lose me"? What are you talking about? I'm not going anywhere!"

 "The Adoption agency wants to see you in person. Shota is worried they might think we're not keeping you healthy because well.. ya know. But we're going to work this out."

 "Why do they want to see me in person after this long?"

"Since you saw.. your parents and siblings- They want to see if the trauma is getting easier to handle,I guess?" I nod as Shota finishes his words.

"It won't ever be easier to fucking handle It was like the damn conjuring! I-"

"You never told us it was still hard to deal with. I understand that it prolly is. I- You know you can talk to us, right?"  I sure hope he isn't bottling all of this up inside.

"Yes I know it's just… extremely difficult to. I even tried to write it down but I just ended up lock- locking up and having a pan-panic attack."  

Toshi started to choke on his words and his eyes started to dart around. Me and Shota glanced at each other knowing what we had to do. When Hitoshi panics he doesn't like close physical contact.