To, All The Boys I've Loved Before

҂ ࣪˖ Chapter 4

I entered the class, avoiding Taeyong's gaze on me. Last night I planned about how I am going to deal with my crushes who received the letter, at least the ones whom I will see today, Doyoung and Taeyong. Let's be honest, things didn't work out as I thought, I never intended to lie to him about Taeyong. I was just going to ignore both the boys till I can and if I got questioned by them then just tell them the truth but why Doyoung has to ask "why don't I feel the same?" He ruined all the plans.

I was just going to change my seat, sit as far as possible from Taeyong, but after my lovely, stupid brain gave me an even stupid idea to call him my boyfriend, I had to tell him about him being my boyfriend. Why can't anything go as you plan!

His eyes didn't leave me for a moment as I made my way to where he was sitting. Yes, I was uncomfortable but that was nothing compared to the embarrassment I was in right now. I sat down carefully, not looking at him while he didn't stop looking at me.

"Umm....Y/N..." he cleared his throat. "I really appreciate it that you find it fascinating when I wear those black jeans and leather jackets but I am really sorry I don't have any sort of feelings for you." He slided the pale blue envelope on the desk, in between my hands. At this moment I just wanted either the earth to swallow me or a wave of tsunami to come and just wipe me off. My cheeks were burning and heart pounding, I doubt if he didn't hear it. Hiding my face in the palms I clutch my hair "oh god please come and take me with you."

"I like you! I like you as a friend. I really adore you, you are my best friend. But I am really sorry I don't see you more than that." He bent down a bit on the desk, trying to look at my face through my hands. I guess whatever I did just now made him think that I am hurt because he didn't accept my feelings.

"I wrote this letter about a year ago, I am over those feelings towards you. Now I only like you as a friend too. I am really sorry you have to read this letter, it was never meant to be delivered but my stupid brother.... Just forget you ever got this letter." I leaned forward on the desk, head buried in my arms as my whole face turned tomato red. "Wait, did Sungchan deliver these letters because you texted his girlfriend?" He laughed, he laughed!? I am literally praying to die here and he is laughing!

"Don't laugh! You don't even know what I am going through." I whined, he laughed again which irritated me even more resulting in me to hit him lightly or maybe not, on his arm. "It's so funny, sorry." He was still laughing, it felt like he would fall from his chair any moment due laughing his lungs out. "You are impossible, Lee Taeyong." I grumbled. "Sorry, I am glad that this didn't make us awkward around each other. I don't want to lose such a funny friend like you. Now cheer up! We are all good!" He shook my shoulders vigorously.

"Yes, I am glad too but I guess I messed up a little and need your help to clean that mess." The way his smile dropped seeing my foolish smile I was sure, it's gonna be difficult to persuade him. "What did you do now?" He deadpanned, the way his demeanour changed made me gulp down a lump formed in my throat as his eyes turned scary like hell.

"You know Doyoung right? I umm... had a crush on him too. Before the holidays I thought of confessing to him but I saw him kissing Jihyun in the hallway after the college was over. I- Jihyun is my friend and I don't want to do anything which could hurt both of them. I am coming over my feelings for him, it's almost done...... but he got that letter too and confronted me about it before class and he kept asking questions, so to- to...to ...." Why is this so hard! His gaze is becoming scarier as I continue, oh god Taeyong calm down!

"To what Y/N? What did you say?" If he is going to be like this I can't even breathe, forget about speaking. But if I don't then I am scared of what he is going to do. Gathering all my strength and taking a deep breath I continued. "Thatyouaremyboyfriend." I said, in one go, eyes tightly shut. "You what?" Even I couldn't make out what I just said, how can he.... "I said that we are dating, and you are my boyfriend." I slid across the wooden seat to be as far from him as possible. "You what?" His serious expressions dropped and again the Taeyong I knew was visible. A smile plastered on his face as he was about to laugh again.