My Heart's A Battleground - VP Special Chapters

VegasPete Special Chapter 1 (Chapter 7.2 of VP Side Story)

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This chapter was translated by @nightowls99 who also happens to write really good VegasPete fanfics on AO3 (go check them out!!!). 

She sent me a private message and told me that I missed 1 chapter and that THIS is actually VIP Special VegasPete Chapter 1 (oops).  I moved this chapter to the beginning, and corrected the chapter titles.

- Punchmyselfintheface

Thank you to Raking-Sing on Weibo for the first round of translation from Thai to Chinese.

Since there are two rounds of translations involved (Thai - Chinese - English), the translation may not be 100% accurate. I have also made changes (instead of directly translating) so that they sound more natural in English. Please note that this is strictly for non-commercial use. No profit was and will be gained from this.

This is from the physical book 3, after VegasPete Chapter 7 and before Chapter 36 of the novel.

- nightowls99 

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Vegas's POV

I sat staring at the pencil in my hand, twirling it out of habit. I paid no attention to the noise made by the people sitting around the meeting table, my mind temporarily focused on something else.

'What is he doing?'

'What kind of facial expression is he making?'

'Has he eaten?'

'Is he happy with today's meal?'

'When he wakes up and doesn't see me, I wonder how relaxed he must be?'

Hehe... Who would have thought that the eldest cousin's head bodyguard would be so fun. When he goes mad, he looks exactly like my cousin. The difference is that Pete has more self restraint, a more understanding heart and was not weak at all.

Being interested in someone that I never thought I would be interested in makes me lose my mind a little. I never thought that a person like Pete would ever exist in this world...

Whenever he is beside me, I feel cozy. Even without any conversation, any body contact, or even when he is just aimlessly walking around. It has reached a point where I cannot even explain it, because this is the first time in my life I have felt so comfortable.

Ever since I was a kid, I had always been so stressed out. I feel very unpleasant when I am with my father, constantly filled with a desire to run away. With everyone else, I could sense the societal expectations placed on me. Knowing that everyone has some sort of job, position or performance expected from me, I feel like I have no self-identity. Until this day, I still do not know who I really am.

"Mr Castin, if you have any problem, you can ask my son. My son is really thoughtful and trustworthy. Right, son? ... Vegas.... Vegas?!" My dad used both his feet to kick me under the table and glared at me harshly, forcing me to pay attention.

"..." I stared at my father in a daze. Following his intention, I turned to face the important client sitting next to me, Khun Castin.

"I gave my son a lot of work recently, which is why he seems a bit tired. How about another cup of coffee? I'll order it for you." I did not say much, because I did not want to glance at my father right now. Even though his words are sweet to mislead other people, I knew his eyes would always show how he is still the same person who hates and blames me.

I am a disgusting person... Because I am gay and because I am not as good as the First Family's son...

He pretends to love me for the sake of the business, making me his puppet so that the power in his hands never wavers, because he knows that I have no choice but to continue the Second Family's business.