Dear Bipolar Brianna,
So today I took my medicine, the medicine y'all prescribed me. I'm working right now. It's 2:02 a.m and I'm off the wall. My anxiety is high. We have this kid who doesn't talk. Kind of reminds me of a recluse. I'm not nice to him. I slap him around. He's admitted to liking me but I don't like him back. I've listened to "die4u" by BMTH over 50 times now. I won't change the song because it gives me anxiety to look for new songs. So I'm listening to what I know. I'm a ball of energy right now but it's hard to breathe, I'm really tired. I only slept 4 hours. And ate some sushi today. It feels like my body is trying to grow out of my body. Does that make sense? Like my bones are trying to escape but can't. I want to hop around. Actually I did hop around. I even ran around. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just a big ball of energetic mess. 51 times. I'm listening to this song again. And it's hard rock but I don't even like rock. But here I am.
4:15pm: I took my medicine @3:00 I got manic and rearranged my living room walls. Hung up some things and beat my hand trying too. The nails wouldn't go in the walls. I'm now at work and tired. It literally is exhausting me. My heart rate was 123 and now it's 90. I feel like my chest is running a race. But my eyes are tired. I think I'm going to start taking it at 8am. I went to bed @9 and woke up @12:35 spent $62.00 on food. Alright gotta get back to work
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Bipolar Bianca
Short StoryHi guys, this is my bipolar journal. To help me and my therapist. It's basically my moods. And how I'm feeling.
