Him. [ READER X QUACKITY ]

srry lol

I woke up about two hours later.

The sun was beginning to set already, the sky a swirling mix of reds, yellows and oranges.

I wonder if Alex was—

Alex!

I quickly out of bed and ran to where I had thrown my phone, and a single notification spread across the screen.

iMessage - xxx-xxx-xxxx

He...texted me. Holy shit, he texted back!

My mind quickly went to every worst possibility. Maybe he was going to cuss me out?

I clicked in the notification.

xxx-xxx-xxxx

5:37

hi srry was busy

it's chill! it's okay

whyd u wanna talk

i just!!
wanted to talk about what happened?
yesterday?

k

it was...
i overreacted.
but you were being an ass.

me?  how? what did i even do?

r u srs

???

well,  you assumed i was
fangirling. which, wow, up ur own
ass much?

sorry?
william, you're forgetting how
many fans I have.
sorry for automatically assuming.

yeah but—you've known me! you remembered i was ur first sub

yeah, the first fan is always super special.

but we—we talked through donos! we were friends.

friends?
you thought you were...
friends with a streamer?
just because they replied
to your donos?

well

sounds awfully parasocial to me.
you'resounding like one of Smiles'* fans.

———

Ah.

He...didn't...consider me a friend.

Now that I say it to someone, it does sound stupid.

How unfortunate that I said it Alex.

But he was right! He was...fuck! Fuck, god damnit.

I actually believed that I was his friend. How fucking stupid. Even worse that I was in love with him.

A part of me felt like I had to give up on my hopes and face the fact that he isn't my friend. Let alone love me.

...The other half wants me to keep going. Because it's what I've wanted for a while. And I can't just let this stupid mishap drag me down.

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*Dream !