LFD 1: Cruel Husband (COMPLETED-UNDER REVISION)

THE STORY BEHIND LFD 1: CRUEL HUSBAND

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Para sa kaalaman ng lahat, there's a story behind writing this. I hope you have time to read this.

Just like Sharalyn, I was once a martyr girl. Kahit ilang beses na 'kong nasasaktan tinatanggap ko pa rin siya. Bakit? Because I loved him. I was 19 that time, eh, and para sa 'kin love is very important especially first boyfriend ko siya. At that time, mahal na mahal ko talaga siya and I want my first to be special. Every first monthsary namin ilang days lang break up then after days nagbabalikan ulit. Mahal ko siya kaya tanggap ako ng tanggap sa kanya. My first boyfriend was like Venom. Babaero siya. Hindi siya nawawalan ng babae. 'Yung first experience ko sa relationship nachachallenge ako and I want him to changed. But after 5 times na nagbalikan kami, he broke up with me because of his ex who wants him back. I was hurt that time and I even cry because of what he did, who wouldn't right? He'll broke up with me for his ex? Then I found my second boyfriend. We lasted for almost 3 months. Bago palang kasi kami mag3 months hindi na siya nagparamdam sa 'kin. Nasaktan ulit ako kasi wala nanamang nangyari.

Then my first boyfriend took 1 year before he contacted me again. Dahil sa martyr nga ako tinanggap ko siya, kasi naniniwala akong magbabago siya. He's sweet, caring, and bago siya may gawin like maglalaro ng ML sinasabi niya muna sa akin, nagpapaalam siya. Hindi ko siya pinipigilan sa gusto niya kasi kahit kami na may bounderies pa rin. My personal life pa rin kami.

Just like before after 1 month break up then after days balikan ulit. That's our routine. Hindi na nga bago sa akin. Then on my 9th times of being a martyr I finally woke up. And what makes me woke up? Nung nalaman ko na may nauna pa pala sa akin at parehas pa kami ng theme song. Uso pa kasi ang exchange fb account no'n at theme song. That time, sobrang nasaktan na 'ko. Kaya nga walang character development ang mga character kasi sa totoong buhay at totoong ganap wala din. They said when a man cried it means he's serious about you, but that line makes me think that it's a false because even if he cried that time, begging for me to accept him again, makes me think that it was a foolish thing to do again. Nahirapan akong magmove on pero nakabangon ako.

While writing LFD 1: Cruel Husband, I was in that stage and now I am fully okay. Honestly just a months ago nagchat siya sa akin. Babawi daw siya sa mga pagkakamali niya, sa mga pagkukulang niya sakin, but when I was thinking the moments we had before, the happy one and sad, kontento na 'ko, eh. Wala na 'yong spark and tibok ng puso ko na nararamdaman ko noon para sa kanya. Kaya when readers keep commenting about the story I keep remembering the reason why the main characters are like that.

But now I'm fully okay after moving on with my close friend, nagconfessed kasi ako sa kanya even though alam kong masisira ang friendship namin but now we are still close friend because we chose friendship over relationship. Now, I'm happy being single and taking care of our precious cats and dogs. I'm awake now and waiting for the right one.

Thank you for reading!