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p1 this isnt goodbye its a see you later -sapnap

plot: basically you and nick are daiting and you are living in the dream team house with dream and george. you had to leave flordia to go back home as family issues.

CW: mentions of death, panic attack, family issues kinda?and mostly fluff:)
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it was about 2am in florida and your boyfriend with streaming, probably minecraft with his friends.

he should be finshing up soon.
but then your phone buzzed on the side table of yours.

oh that must be sapnap or dream calling. i thought to my self.

i look at my phone and see it was my mum.

"well this can't be good" i said to my self.

dad has been in hospital for about, i don't even know. he's been in and out. and it's so stressful.

"god, finally!" my mum huffs as i pick the phone up

"i've been trying to call you for thr past 2 hours!" she says

she's not right. she sounds angry. i hope i haven't done anything.

"ma i'm sorry it's nearly 3am here"

"oh shit sorry i kept forgetting!" she apologises

"mum what's going on?"

she takes a deep breath.
god this cant be good.

"i think it's time el."

"he's not getting any better?"
"but u said he was!" raising my voice a little

"i know i shouldn't of, look i'm sorry"
"can you please come here, hes only got little left."

"your brother has sent your plane ticket all the info is their."
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"look i'm sorry but i need you here"

"mum thars not fair-"

"ELLE" she shouts i flinch

"look i know shit has happened in our family but we need to be here for each other"

"i love u ok, tell nick i say hi!"

"bye ma i love u. i hope ur ok" i say ending the call.

now i just want nick.
but i don't wanna just disbursed him.
i look at my notifications on my phone and see that he messaged me.

nick<3
ive just finished streaming, everyone has i'll be in a sec. love u
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he's gonna hate me.
i have to fucking leave him.

sat on the floor in nick jumper and a blanket crying.

i don't know why i am crying.
pathetic
useless cow
fucking whore

what if nick leaves me like he did.
no no he wouldn't.

oh elle but he will! you know he will.

"oh my fucking god can you shut up!" i shout knowing it's not gonna stop my thoughts.

"elle?" i hear a knock on my door.