Glow up

Funeral

TW:Self h@rm

Ayanas pov
I was walking downstairs to get some food for myself when suddenly I get a phone call

Ayana:hello?

I answered the phone feeling anxious I was scared what was gonna he said to me I had a gut feeling it was gonna be something related to my family members or whatever...

Doc:yes...hello Ayana about your grandma..she well um...I'm sorry

Yup...I obviously knew it my heart shattered my eyes watered she was the only person that I had left in my life after my dad passed it was hard to get over his death to this day I still never got over it...but my grandma hurted the most she raised me all my life when my mother was busy with work I hung the phone up immediately dropping to my knees beginning to cry all I can even think about was her...my best friend my second mother...my everything

All I could do was scream and cry on the top of my lungs knowing she wouldn't come back to me I noticed a blade in my pocket I glared at it for a minute but I traced it down my left forearm making a deep cut this time it was deeper than usual but I didn't give a fuck at this point and made three more cuts on the same arm my hands started shaking causing me to drop the blade the blood was now making clots because the cuts were deep very...deep I heard someone waking downstairs so I hid in the living room sometimes I forget y/n lives in the same house as me but at the moment I was with BTS in Korea

The front door opens revealing a worried Yoongi

Yoongi:hey...are you okay bestie?

I try to play it cool with a fake smile looking at him

Ayana:I'm okay!!

Yoongi raised an eyebrow looking at me like I was crazy

Yoongi:girl...you are not okay and I understand that please talk to me

Ayana:well my grandma died and-

I started sobbing hugging Yoongi into his chest not letting him go Yoongi rubs my back comforting me the best way he could I felt safe in his arms

Yoongi:my poor baby...it'll be okay she's in a better place rip to that beautiful Angel

Ayana:I wanna go live and tell my fans...

Yoongi:okay let's do it together

He smiles warmly at me as I giggle slightly I start the live and walk to the bucket with microphones so I decided to use a red one

Yoongi:that's a great choice

I laugh then get serious about to reveal the news

Ayana:hey guys my grandma just passed away and I wanted to sing this song dedicating my love to her is that okay with you guys *sniffs*

ayanas.husband:awww rip

Jin:don't cry angel I'll be home from work soon I'm bringing you ramen and rice!!

Namjoon:why didn't you say anything sweetheart

user:I'm so sorry babe

piperisugly:awww are you okay

Jihyo:we love you 💙

Y/n.Rose:it's okay baby

Mattia:fly high angel

Yeji:we love you Ayana💕💕💕 stay strong

jimins.man:ofc you can bby

Yuna:I'm so sorry for your loss

I told Yoongi to play stay with me and he did I turn in the mic ready to sing the song

Ayana: Guess it's true I'm not good at a one night stand
But I still need love cause I'm just a man
These nights never seem to go to plan
I don't want you to leave will you hold my hand

Oh won't you stay with me
Cause you're all I need
This ain't love, it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me

Why am I so emotional
No it's not a good look gain some self control
And deep down I know this never works
But you can lay with me so it doesn't hurt

Oh won't you stay with me
Cause you're all I need
This ain't love it's clear to see
But, darling stay with me

I tear up while vocalizing to the song as  Yoongi tears up a little bit I didn't want my fans to worry about it too much so I tried my best not to cry a lot

Ayana: Oh won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love, it's clear to see
But, darling, stay with me

Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love, it's clear to see
But, darling, stay with me

The song ends and Yoongi looks at me and I look at him too

Yoongi:alright guys we're gonna end this live now

Yoongi ends it and hugs me tightly

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I was now at the graveyard with a handfull of flowers leaving them at her grave and kneel down taking deep breaths

Ayana:this is our last goodbye...I love you so much you mean the whole world to me and I care about you more than myself i can't believe this is for real.. I wish it was fake what am I gonna do now...without you to cook and be there for me before I go I just wanna say...you were good to me and you will always be my number one supporter you're the reason I want to continue my singing career thank you for raising me when nobody else could im thankful to have you in my life words can't describe how much I'm blessed to have you see you soon Nonna I'll miss you a lot goodbye

I get up and kiss the gravestone waking away with tears flowing in my eyes the rain was pouring down sky was grey and black luckily I had an umbrella with me but I noticed a figure walk up to me and It was Jimin

Jimin:let's go baby

Jimin leads me to the car that Jin was driving but I didn't know cause I walked there obviously I get in the front seat and Jin hugs me letting me know everything was okay

Jin:it'll be okay I promise I love you so much