the bully

trying to figure out me

Going home, gulf went straight upstairs to his bedroom to close his door and lock, to then go to his bed to lay to his stomach to grab a pillow to place under his mouth to then scream into it.
Hearing light knocking gulf groaned into them pillow to then turn his head on it to eye the back of the door.
"Mom.....I really need to be left alone."
"It's not mom, gulf please open the door."
Gulf signed to then get up to walk slowly to the door to then open it to eye over his father.
"Dad....I really want to....."
He's father shook his head.
"No we need to talk."
Gulf signed again to then turn to go to his bed to sit to the edge to look to his hands trying to not show this hurt him a bit since his ass was still to be healing.
His father went in to then close the door to then step to look over gulf.
"What is going on with you gulf? You're mother and I are very worried. Is there something going on with school? Something going on with your friends?"
Gulf took in a very deep breathe to then slowly look up to his dad.
"I..... Think I...... Might be gay."
His father widened his eyes to then make a face to then go to sit to the edge of the bed right next to him to look to the back of the door.
"Why..... Do you think that?"
Gulf strightened up to then turn his head to eye his father with his heart racing.
"I..... Was kissed by a boy when I was younger...... Didnt feel a thing but......I do feel something with another......"
Rather it is totally messed up or not.
His father wrapped his arms about himself to click his teeth together.
"Have you've...... Tried to be with a girl?"
Gulf looked over his father to then turn his head to hang it.
"No......"
His father turned his head to look over gulf.
"Don't press it if that feels wrong to you. I want you to be happy gulf. Does this other boy know you like him? Are you two dating?"
Gulf widened his eyes to then look over his father in shock.
"I...... Don't know and...... No we're not.... Are you..... Okay with this?"
His father shrugged.
"Rather you to be talking to me like this, open and honest, then how you have been. I know this is a lot. Well.....I can't really know. But gulf you're mother and I are here for you. You also dont have to be ashamed or anything. Also.... Should we talk about.... Sex?"
Gulf made a face to then turn his head to hang it.
His father looked to him to then turn his head to then look forward to the door.
"Maybe another time. Know letting all this out has to be....."
His father took in a deep breathe to then get up to then go to the door.
Gulf immediately looked up.
"Dad!"
His father stopped to then turn to eye him.
"Yes?"
"Can you....... Not tell mom....I...... Don't even fully know if I am or not...."
His father nodded.
"I wont say a word. You should though also since you've been so busy with that.....I do need to let you know what your mother has been wanting to let you know, you're going to be a big brother."
Gulfs lips parted.
He watched his father go to then take in a deep breathe to then flop to his back to look over his ceiling.
Wow......
Gulf then placed his hands to his eyes to then have his body shake a bit, it was always easier to talk to his father then his mother about things like this.
Gulf then took his hands from his eyes to then grab the pillow to place to his stomach to then wrap his arms about to eye over the ceiling once more.
I know I have feelings for tharn..... Had them before that kiss with pili..... When tharn used to be so nice and tender.... When we actually were to be friends...... When he used to be so very nice to me. But after that kiss..... Not to even know if I'm fully gay or not..... Everything just..... Turned sideways.....
Gulf took in a deep breathe to then place his pillow to his face.
I really don't know what I am...... But I do know I really wanted tharn to kiss me first and.... Earlier.......
Gulf groaned into his pillow to then turn about to his stomach to wrap his arms about it to place his chin to it to take in very deep breathes.
I know what tharn has done to me is not at all right but.....I can also see where he was trying to be nice...... Maybe this is confusing to him has well, maybe he is gay to.....
Gulf made a considering face to then take in a deep inhale to look about.
Maybe.....I can help him well he helps me?
Ugh....I don't even know how to go about with that. I really don't know what to do about anything. This whole thing is just.....
There are so many other ways to bully me, why does he.....mmm..... Maybe he is struggling with his self has i am?
Gulf signed to then turn to his back to look over the ceiling to start to close his eyes to start to drift off.
I really do miss tharn has my friend......if pili hadent done that surprise kiss...... Would we still have been friends? Maybe.... More?
Gulf took in deep breathes has his mind started to float away to then go under to start to dream about how him and tharn used to be before all this stuff that happened to pili came into being.
Gulf couldn't help to smile here and there has he had memories of the past start to go through his subconscious.