Ｍｉｘｅｄ Ｆｅｅｌｉｎｇｓ[Ashfur x Scourge]

Ｆｅｅｌｉｎｇｓ

I yawned softly raising my head from my pillow. I looked out the window as rain poured off of the roof onto the glass. I placed my hand onto the window it was cold making hand away I placed it on my head. "Must've slept through all of it."

I sipped the cup of water on my dresser and rolled off of my bed. I groaned slowly walking to the kitchen. Mother stood over the stove with eggs in the pan. The sizzling sound made my stomach grumble.

"Nice to see you're waking up early on a weekday, I would have had to wake you up as a child." She turned to me and smiled. I rested my head against the table cloth and smiled. "Everyday is like a school day since they've been making us study on the weekends as well," She sighed and set the plate in front of me. "They should really lay off the students" She snickered "excuse my French," I nodded.

"I bet school was a lot easier for you," She sat down in front of me "It was a bit.. They didn't have all of these new ways of math and science," She explained "But everything was still new, So it was pretty hard for some of us. But I'm glad you're working hard in school there are many who don't work as hard as you." I looked up at her eating a small piece of toast. "Thanks Mom" She smiled. "You're welcome."

I walked down the block the day was cold and windy. A lot of the plants were dripping with rain and dropped onto my head. I smiled and looked at the white sky.

I love how the sky turns white after rain or a storm it makes me wonder more.

My eyes widened as I turned again to see Angela and him. They held each others chins as they kissed deeply Scourge held her hip with his left and her chin with the other. I didn't watch for long as I looked down at the sidewalk and went across the road starting to run slightly. I was crying.

I stopped at a tree and hit my fists against it. I broke down like a baby. My insides hurt as if I had been stabbed in the heart a million times.

I don't know how loud I was, I didn't care. It hurt like hell and I had no idea why.

A few hours after that I stood by the lake in the park. I got on my knees and stared at the fish swimming back and forth.

Why did I react like that? If I can't react like a fucking adult I should just walk away. And he's a guy anyways my heart shouldn't be all hurt like this, Maybe I'm just jealous of her! Yeah! I sure that's it!

I sighed and moved my fingers against the water.

"Ashfur?" I squinted as I heard him. "You know if you do that your pants are going to get wet and its hard to clean that off," I sniffed softly and stood up. "You're right.." I looked away from him and sat down on one of the benches. "What is it? You sound like you've been crying, I might be wrong because you never really cry." He smiled but I didn't really care to look. "I might have been," I looked down at my knees and sighed. "Why have you been crying then?" I closed my eyes shut as tight as I could.

I think I need to tell him. I'm scared but if I don't I won't be able to get past it. I know it's because of him. I feel weird just seeing him now. I don't understand! I wasn't like this yesterday! Why now?!