My Mind.

Depths of My love

I met this boy, a lovely boy...someone who experienced the same heartless drug as me before we met a nice person with a big but fragile heart even if he won't admit it we became close friends, loving each other's company as we both knew we loved each other beyond more than just friends just never told each other we ended up dating-currently still together and I'm happy & Him as well but now after a few months there is a little void there like something is wrong, we both know it we both are scared I'm not scared of losing him as a partner and I know it sounds wrong but listen the only reason I'm not scared is because relationships end. And some friendships may end but not so much...I won't quickly heal from losing him as my boyfriend because I love him dearly and he does everything he can to make me happy but losing him as a friend? After everything? I can't see myself losing him like that for good, I can't see him walking out of my life for good and it scares me because it may happen and I don't know if I'll be able to stop him from leaving and watching our bond break hurts my whole heart and I enjoy every moment with him enjoy every moment but if one day I have to say "Goodbye." I would instantly lose it and break down even if he were to pass on going up to Heaven as they take care of him up there for me...it hurts to even think about and I can hear some people say "Think positive" or "Don't think that" but it's a part of life! It's a part of learning to accept it so when it does come...you're partly ready. I hope I never have to say "Goodbye" to him ever, it will kill me.