I'm in love with a criminal (completed)

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So apparently last night there was some welcoming party or something for someone. and I didn't go cause I was taking care of Abel who had gotten sick.

But from my surprise late night visit from Opie who had blood on him and was in tears I knew something happened or someone died.

I noticed he had Ellie and Kenny with him.

I brought them inside and told Opie to get cleaned up while I got the kids situated and tucked in bed.

when I walked back out to the couch Opie looked like a heartbroken mess. I wrapped my arms around him and comported himhe told me Donna was killed in a head on collision crash.

I held him as he cried and told him I was sorry for his loss. 

After a while, I got him up and headed towards my bedroom where I told him to get some rest that I'm gonna help him with all I can..

So while he slept in my bed I slept in Abel's room so I could make sure he was doing ok and if Ellie and Kenny needed me I'd be able to go to them. or if Opie needed me I would go to him.

Now here we are at Donna's service. Ellie and Kenny are with their grandparents while I'm Holding Abel and comforting Opie

Once she was lowered into the ground  we got up and made our way towards our cars. 

"mind if I take Abel for a while?" Gemma asked

"hey bub you wanna go spent time with grandma and grandpa?" I asked Abel.

"Yea" he says

"alright baby. be good and mommy loves you" I tell him as I handed him off to Gemma.

"you take care of him" Gemma says

"I will" I assured her

when Opie went to leave I grabbed his arm.

"don't run off swety. come back to my place and we will talk." I tell him

He nodded his head before he got on his bike and I climbed in my car and we left since Opie was having Mary watch his kids.

When we got situated at my place we talked about different things.

"Can I be honest with you Opie. I mean not to be sounding like a bitch or talk ill about the dead. but I wanna be honest with you" I tell him

"sure" he says

"I know you loved her and that she was your kids' mom and all. but the shit she was adding on you and all that "I raised kids alone while Opie was locked up. was a whole bunch of horseshit. I mean she's the one who refused any help when you were in Chino, so she has no one to blame but herself on that one. the whole you getting out of the club bullshit was not needed. yet she kept harping and nagging till you'd all but snap on her ass. then she'd play victim about the whole shit. I mean she was trying to change you Opie when she knew all about what she was signing up for the minute she got with you when you were prospecting. hell, she knew about some of it when you two were dating. It's no wonder you two were bound for divorce I mean with the constant shit she was pulling on you I don't know how you lasted this long. Except for the fact you didn't want your kids to go without knowing their dad." I tell him

"I know that shit with her wasn't easy and she was always on my ass about the club and leaving it and earning straight. it's one of the reasons she never got my crow cause I had a feeling deep down that she'd never make it as an ol'lady. and to be completely honest I was still in my high school phase of loving her throughout our relationship and marriage. After being locked up I started to come out of that phase and the reality of what was going on had struck. when I got out I tried to make things work for the sake of our kids. but she never let up on the club matter and getting a great paying job and how she was all alone raising our kids. cause the club fucked me over. when she was killed it was the night I had told her that I didn't love her anymore. that we should divorce and just coparent. she yet again blamed the club before she drove off. the whole being upset and crying was my guilt. I felt that it was my fault she was killed and that our kids will hate me" he says

I turned so I was fully facing him.

"sweety you're not to blame for what happened to her. and I get that you had some feelings for her cause she is your kids' mother and I'm not talking about anything Romantic or any of that sort. I mean like respect and trust. But you can't blame yourself for her actions. she was an adult who knew to never drive while too emotional or upset. and no I'm not blaming her for being killed cause no one told that fuck tard drunk to get shit face and drive." I tell him

"what am I gonna do with Kenny and Ellie?" he asked

"your gonna be their dad. your gonna be there for them and you're gonna love them till they get so sick of your love that they make faces of groan. but they will know that they still have a parent in their life that is with them all the way and that isn't gonna give up on them that's gonna do his damndest to guide them through life right and help them no matter what. that you're not balling on them cause those babies need you right now and you need them." I replied

"Thank you so much for all you are doing for me and have done," he says

"Opie I'm gonna be honest with you and you can take this however you want and do with it what you will. ok" I tell him

He nodded 

"I'm n love with you and have been for so damn long. but I knew I'd never have any chance since you was still with Donna. and I'm not a homewrecker. so I tried to move on. and yes that wasn't the best idea. since I had a sexual relationship with Jax. but I don't regret the outcome of it. cause I have my beautiful baby boy who I think the world of. " I tell him

He looked at me.

"I will always have your back no matter what. and if the feelings aren't mutual that's fine. I'll still love you and be there for you" I told him

"And if they are?" he asked

"then we will see what happens." I replied