Re:Birth | TBATE

Moving Forward

Arthur Leywin/Grey POV

Listening to birds sing and color little sounds as if I were in the middle of some kind of lullaby that could very well have been paradise itself.

Contrary to what I thought, this little chorus stopped when I realized that I had to wake up and continue with my day, however I felt heavy, as if some kind of shell was weighing me down.

This feeling lasted for a long time until I finally felt comfortable and free to wake up completely.

For a moment I stared into nothingness thinking about everything that had happened in these few days, or rather hours, compiling everything that had happened in my brain and trying to see the best course of action to move forward despite the sadness that loomed over me and how emotionally limiting it was I couldn't help but remember the dream I had earlier.

But it didn't feel specifically like a dream either, I clearly remember the moment I was crowned, it's not that I remember the event itself, rather I remember the feelings that my heart held at that moment.

Pain, anger, sadness, a harsh reminder of how emotional I was as Gray.

But by far what I remember most is how strong I was as Gray, what I say sounds contradictory, but no matter how melancholic feelings were in most of my life, I knew how to control it very well.

Something that I had forgotten in this life is not something I regret, something natural about human beings is to lower their defenses when they feel safe.

And I was very sure that it was going to be very different, and in fact it was.

But in this short period of time that I have spent alone I have not been able to stop thinking that.

'Maybe it would have been better if I hadn't revealed anything.' This thought has been hanging around my mind every minute and every damn moment, like some kind of curse that will follow me until the day I die.

A rather grotesque sound broke me out of my little trance, it was Sylvie, whom I had not heard from since yesterday.

Sylvie remained asleep most of the time, she showed no sign of wanting to wake up even with the smell of meat, the food she loved so much.

If it weren't for the fact that I can feel her breathing and I can still see her little belly rise and fall she might have thought that she was no longer here with me.

Preparing for the real start of the day I wanted to make some kind of goals for today, but no matter how much I thought I couldn't help but think about the 'what if'.

Trying to distract myself by doing some kind of routine, I began to stretch to lighten these muscles of mine, if you could notice the muscles in a 12-year-old child of course.

It worked pretty well but I still felt heavy and like my body wasn't used to getting up or walking, it felt like I was a newborn baby again.

But although I felt weak and heavy, I still had to give my maximum effort to get through this day, at the end of the day the only thing I can do now is survive on my own, whether trying not to die of hunger, or trying to make these feelings do not corrupt me...

Already starting to move I began to realize that...

I didn't know where I was, I remember using mana to run out of Xyrus City, but I don't remember what direction I took, not even if I used a portal.

But one thing was clear because of this ominous fog that I could see ahead.

If I went deeper I wouldn't be able to get out of Elshire Forest.