One i hope my daughter doesn't have to carry
one i wish i didn't inherit
that heavy lift
bend and pick up all those pieces
of things i didn't break from messes I didn't make
words like "im fine" "i forgive you" "i understand" roll off my tongue like tears roll down my face
this burden is not an easy one to carry, one that may very well burry me, take me under
words cut like knives from your tongue when i know you're trying to hurt me
tear stains on pretty pink pillowcases
i cry like newborn children
mourning who i used to be cause that girl in the mirror looks like a stranger to me
she's carrying weight she was not made to shoulder, weight like this should not exist
my black body buckling, struggling while y'all watch and applaud my strength
you smile and congratulate me while you watch my back break
i have grown to hate the word strong
cannot stand the word resilient
someday i know i will not be able to carry the burden to forgive, to forget, to let go, to bounce back, to be alright
and like glass ill shatter into bitterness, hopelessness and hurt
forever healing wounds that are not mine
the burden to forgive, one I pray my daughter won't carry
one I wish I didn't inherit.
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Halo (Poetry)
PoetryRecently,I've felt stuck in the present. The uneventfulness is only giving me time to think It gives time for old skeletons to come out of the closet It only increases the weight of the thorn covered halo above my head. It's weighing me down Welcome...
