Loving u<3 (Tamber)

More than "best friends"??

(Honestly I had no ideas planned for this chapter, so if it sucks yk🤷‍♀️)

Amber's POV:
I whispered in Tara's ear asking her if she wanted to come over after school ofc she just smiled and nodded with a simple "yes"
Right after she says that I hear the bell
So everyone splits up basically me, Tara, and... Wes.... In first period and then chad by himself then I think Mindy and Liv??? Tbh I don't pay that much attention.

In first period:
So basically we're in first period which ofc had to be the worst subject, math. But yk what's even worse about it Having to hear Wes trying to flirt with Tara every f*cking second seeing her laugh at it.
I'm not the type of person to get jealous but please shut up for once.

Tara sat in the middle, Wes sits on her left, and I sit on her right
Ig it's always been like that.

The way Tara smiles at Wes isn't fair. She usually smiles at me like that but now he wants to tell his corny pick up lines she smiles at him the way she's supposed to smile at me!?
It's not like I'm jealous I'm just curious ig.

Tara's pov:
I love over at Amber but she turned away really fast.
Is she mad at me? Should I ask her? I don't even get it? But I can admit her side view is really pretty it's normal for me to admire her features right? I've always thought she looked pretty attractive.
I'm surprised no one has asked me about her or nothing I mean it's not like I would tell them anything but still.
Amber looks back at me and that's when I turn my head really quickly.
WAS I REALLY JUST ADMIRING HER FEATURES???
It's not like I haven't done it before though but this time I can feel something in my stomach and I'm getting hot.

I'm not gay I mean if I was gay then everyone would hate me right? So that's lucky I'm not because I'll never be.
I'll just date Wes then I'll realize that I'm straight and it's normal to check out your best friend of 10 years. I mean I'm not gay, I'm not gay right!? Could someone please answer me.
I can feel my breathing starting to get worse
"Teacher can I be dismissed!" I quickly say
"Sure thing Tara" oh thank god.
I run out of the classroom into the bathroom that wasn't too far away.
I pull out my inhaler and quickly use it.
I just look in the mirror I can't help myself from crying. I just don't want to ruin anything I mean me gay!? Why is that so hard for me to comprehend.

There's foot steps coming towards the bathroom
Going into a stall quickly I sit down with my pants on and everything. I mean it's kinda cold but that's not the actual reason why I put my hands around myself like this. I can feel my heart sinking.
I MEANN WHAT CAN I SAY I WAS CRYING🤷‍♀️
I feel more comfortable when I hear a soft voice say "Tara are you okay" oh.
It was Amber
I open the stall door in relief
"Come on let's go back to the classroom the teacher is starting to wonder what's taking you so long"

Amber's POV:
It was obvious that Tara was crying which is usually normal due to her asthma I mean it can get pretty bad sometimes.

I take my thumb up to her face and wipe her tears off. I grab her hand "come on Tara you can't keep hiding in here forever" I pull her back into the classroom.

Lunch time ig:
I'm walking to the usual table our group sits at for lunch when I notice a short brown haired girl jump in front of me.
"Hey Tara" I say softly
"Hiiiiiiii Amberrrrrr" She's replying very happily she probably wants something from me.
"What is it?" Implying that she should just say what she wants to say. I love her but🤷‍♀️

"Nothing, I just wanted to say hi"
"Oh well hi" replying back to Tara
She grabbed my hand and walked me over to the table. My heart feels like it's about to explode.
"Heyyyy Tara!" I hear Wes saying, can't he just mind his own business? It's not like I hate him or anything it's actually nothing like that.
I'm just mad seeing Tara with him so much because that's like my best friend? Or something like that. I just don't wanna see Tara hurt.
I'd do anything just to see her smile and hear her laugh. That's my best friend or idk what she is to me but I'm her best friend so I need to be here for her.

"Hey Amber you jealous" Mindy whispered to me
"What the hell, why would I be jealous?" Replying to her.
"Because you want Tara all to yourself" her comment made me think but ofc not I just want her to know that he's not a good guy for her.
In fact no one in this school is a good guy for her.
"That's not it and also I'm not mad she can like whoever she wants"
"Whatever" she says replying to me.
"But when you realize you're madly in love with her make sure to contact me first I'm the best you could come to about this" she adds on
"Whatever Mindy"
The bell rings
I don't have any other classes with Tara so this is gonna be boring.

(Tara's POV)
After school and stuff:
I'm getting into Amber's car it smells really good surprising that Amber actually keeps her car clean.
"Wanna listen to music" as I hear the sound of Amber's voice catch my attention
"Duhhhhhh" I reply with
"What's up with you and Wes, you've never laughed or smiled at his jokes and pick up lines before. Do you like him" as I hear amber say that my heart sinks. Should I say no? But I probably do like him and don't know it.
"I mean yeah" omg.
"Do you think he will go out with me" I reply back.
I mean I'm not gay so I do probably like him I mean some people say it's hard to realize your feelings for someone. I look at Amber after thinking of that sentence... Yeahhh.

"We're here carpenter" I look up to the sound of Amber. I like Amber's house even though I don't know much about stab it's still really cool. Ig
I'm not really a big fan of horror that was based on a true story in our town Where AMBER LIVES.
But it's fine because it's a nice house.
I get out of the car and walk into Amber's house
"My parents aren't home so feel free to do whatever you want"

I walk up to Amber's room with her
I sit on her bed, her bed has always been comfortable. Amber sits down by me but I'm starting to get nervous. It's never been like this before, since forever we've been sharing a bed whenever one of would stay at the others house.
"Wanna watch a movie?" Amber says
"What about stab" she adds on
"We're gonna watch a movie in the house where it happened?" I told her or asked honestly idk
"Why not"
The way Amber said that is killing me.
"Fine" I replied without thinking I just felt like I wanted to do whatever she wants.

In the middle of the movie:
I look down at Amber, she's sleeping.
I'm sitting up in the bed my heart is racing why?
She looks really pretty when she's sleeping.
I finally notice that she's laying on my stomach...
I wanna pull her arm around me.
It's not like we haven't cuddled before but this seems different. Oh no, oh no no no no
I set her head down on the pillow getting up
I go to her bathroom.

I look in the mirror
I'm not gay. I don't like girls. I like Wes.
Right? Yeah right I do.
It's not like I wanna kiss Amber or that i get weak around her wanting to do anything for her
Or that I would let her take over me. She's just a friend that's it not even that she's my best friend.

I go back into the room tapping Amber
"Do you want me to stay?" Asking her
"If you want to" she says replying to me
I don't know if I'm gonna be able to get any sleep but I lay down anyways.
Amber fell right asleep again
I just look at her it's hot under these blankets
I turn over.
It's gonna be a long night

(I made this whole thing during 4 of my classes only for 1491 words anyways this is kinda corny so🤷‍♀️)