"Skylar wake up! The group session is about to start. Come on!" I rolled out of bed, redid my hair and Talia and I walked to the lounge area. There were a circle of chairs and a couple of people already there. No sign of the doctor. Talia sat next to me. I fiddled with my hand waiting for the doctor to finally come.
"Hello everyone. Good afternoon we will be starting something a little different today. I am going to hand you each a journal so that you can write your feelings down and also for some homework assignments." the journals are passed around the room. "We also have a new friend with us today so lets all introduce our selves to her."
The girl with blonde thin hair sitting next to the doctor stood up. "My name is Stella. I am 22 years old and I am anorexic."
Another girl with black hair stood up "My name is Annie. I am 18 and I'm bulimic."
A girl sitting next to Talia stood up "My name is Gina. I am 18 and I am a compulsive overeater."
"Alright then Skylar would you like to introduce yourself to the group?" the doctor said.
"Okay. My name is Skylar. I am 16 years old. I am anorexic." I sat back down.
The meeting got started. The doctor asked questions and different people share how they feel. There were some tears and some laughs. Stella did most of the talking besides the doctor of course. At the end of the meeting, the doctor gave us a writing assignment for our journals. What is the best memory that you have? How am i supposed to write on something like that? I don't understand the relevance of the question. Anyways I started heading for the door to work on this assignment when I feel a hand grab my shoulder. It was Nurse Rodney.
"Hi hun. How was your first group session?"
"It was good. I am gonna go start the assignment we were given."
"You will have to wait. Its dinner time." she smiled at me and showed me to the cafeteria. I sat down at the table Talia and Gina were at. One of the other nurses brought out our dinners. My plate had a 6 ounce steak, a cup of mashed potatoes, and a half cup of corn. I took a couple of bites of corn and then just sat there looking at it.
Talia turned to me. "You have to eat it."
"I can't. It's too much."
"You have to or tomorrow there will be more."
I ate more of it slowly. My hands were shaking and my eyes were watering. When I was completely done I went back to my room and paced. I went to look in the mirror and couldn't get the thoughts of calories out of my head. I had to get rid of them. I dug through my things to find something to help. I found nothing so i sat down on the floor and cried. Talia walked in and tried to calm me down. She was actually concerned for me. The only other time I have seen that was with my brother. She got me up and onto my bed. I went to sleep.
