its a story about me uhm its probably because its my safe place to rant i can open up here without any hesitations read if u want to its gonna be smth i went thro or smth im suffering from its basically what a teen feels im sure u must feeel that...
quick ootd im wearing a pastel green top with black jeggings ...
idk why im the only kid who never recieved love from my parents i just had a fight with my brother and he fake cried and lied my mom believed him and said im mental enought o do any crazy shit and i dont study but how hard i try studying just to make her happy idk why i never get any love affection and care from my parents they never give me anything i want or just love me like they do to my siblings i cant argue or fight with my sis cause she is older than me i cant say or fight with my brother cause he is younger than me whereas they both can kill me it doesnt matters my sis tried killing me by choking me but none of my parents seem to care about it haha my life is a joke to them oh how bad i wish to be loved and get all the affection from them but they make me feel im an outcast i dont belong to this family i try my best to make them happy and everything i do everything to see them smile but everytime smth happens its my fault i get beaten up and scolded why so ? i didnt even do smth wrong my mom always say me to die she says who cares even if she dies she is right who cares who cares to make me happy who cares to see me dead who cares even if i just dissapear no one does cause im an outcast im a person who wasnt loved by anyone and even if someone gives me happiness my family takes them away from me to me life is nth i have been living for myself ................the fact that if i sit while having my air conditioner on im just wasting electricity but when my siblings its nth they are feeling hot so they can sit but not me no one cares about me they joke about me my body my nature my face my everything and im not even allowed to cry about it beause if i do im a rude crybaby who doesnt know anything rather than crying sometimes i wish i die and this all ends cause its too painful to hear and bear these things the fake love i get the fake attention and everything they fake it... why so ? am i not a human or its just im someone who is not allowed to live if its like that i can die anytime if they say so
no one ever gets excited about my bday but fo rmy siblings the days are counted they get wished and everything is celebrated no one cares if i celebrate it or not its just me crying everytime begging for a day of my life to be happy i just wanna hear happy bday baby i love u but nah no one says this even if its fake is it hard to just smile and live a happy life yeah it is idk whyyyy but i suck so much that everyone hates me .... anyways
i woke up at 1:30 pm and then took a shower ate my lunch and then got scolded for my brothers fake act she laughed at me after all this and when i told me mom she went like so what she laughed idc :) right u dont thats why u never seem to listen to my side of story the instant fear i have that she will beat me cause she beats me at every lil things and im scared of it im like a human punching bad my family has whenever someone is angry they beat me or shout at me and afterall of this i cant even cry lmao so good
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i hate myself i hate it i hate it till my death why cant i die why cant i get love like others am i a exception or something huh? why so unfair to me
i wanna be loved anyways
i saw kdrama danced and ate dinner nth much im just scrolling through insta and imma end it here cause i got nth to talk about and my mood is ruined too so bye bye cuties >>>
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