The Resident

Turn Away

Your heart is pounding as you roam down the hallway. You had been in your apartment for quite some time before removing yourself from the room. You had to find John and tell him how you felt.
You saw Johns's door to his room open and you take a few deep breaths before knocking. There's the sound of shuffling before John appears in the doorway.

'(Y/N)? What're- are you okay? You don't look so well'.

'Oh I uh- I'm fine, I uh, can we talk?'

He steps back and allows you in, 'yeah, I was hoping to talk to you, I came by yours but you weren't there'.

'Oh yeah, sorry about that'.

You pick at your nails and John points towards the kitchen, 'do you want a drink?'

'Uh, no sorry I was hoping to make this a brief visit'.

'I see... Also, the reason why I came over was... Look, what we did last night? I don't think we shouldn't have done that'

You were supposed to feel happy and relieved... But you felt awkward about it and... Sad.

'Ah yeah I uh, that's why I'm here, I'm so glad you feel that way'.

You laugh nervously but a shiver run downs your spine when you see John's eyes grow dark. It was like the life was sucked out of them.

Don't think about it.

'Well then, I best be off, I've got to head to work'.

You don't want to make it any more awkward than what it was already. John gives you a small smile, one that you've never seen before, 'yeah sure, be safe'.
You're quick to leave.

+

You're silent as you work away in the studio but Flint is quick to poke you with a painbrush, 'hey, start talking, what's wrong?' You look up to see real concern in his face.

'Ah just... Having one of those days'.

'Ah, feeling a little blue, I've had moments like those'.

'Yeah, so I'm trying to make myself busy'.

Flint goes to say something but his eyes grow wide as he looks past you which you follow. Your heart drops when you see who was standing in the doorway.

'Jackson? What're you doing here?'

He gives you a nervous smile, 'I was passing by and I thought I'd swing by and see how you are', you can tell that Flint is far from happy, 'look buddy-'.
You stop Flint, 'it's alright Flint, I'll talk to him', you motion Jackson to stand outside, 'why're you really here?'

'I... Miss you (Y/N), I really miss you and-'.

'You didn't miss me when you were kissing Claire'.

He closed his eyes and sighed, 'I- I did a really stupid thing', you cross your arms in frusteration, 'you think?'

'I really miss you and I spoke to Claire and told her about what we did-'.

'Great-'.

'Godsake (Y/N), will you let me speak!?'

'No, I don't think-'.

'Please (Y/N), please just... Let me make it up to you'.

You can't believe what you're hearing but... You think back to what happened earlier this morning. When you and John went your seperate ways.

'Alright'.

Jackson's eyebrows raised in surprise, 'really?' You nod slowly, 'fine... How about we go somewhere to eat?'
He's quiet for a few moments before nodding quickly, 'yeah uh... Yeah I know a great place where we can eat and all that'.

'Good, here's my address'.

You're kicking yourself as you give him your location but something deep down causes you to jump in excitement.

If you couldn't have John, then you could have Jackson all over again.