Married? I have amnesia, don't lie to me!

CHAPTER 64

it was warm in the room that was warm, but the hand that shi nan was holding was cold and bone-chilling.

shi nan took a coat from the closet and draped it over song linsheng.

only the bedside lamp was turned on in the bedroom, because of the absurdity of the afternoon, the bed sheets and quilt cover were thrown into the washing machine before they could put on.

song linsheng leaned against the bay window with a cigarette in his hand and smoked slowly, on the surface he looked very calm, but under close inspection, he could see that his hand was trembling.

"i owe two people in my life, one is you and the other is her." song linsheng opened his mouth hoarsely.

shi nan's heart moved, in fact, he heard song linsheng say this, when he said, "if you want to say who he owes in this life, then shi nan is one of them", but at that time, shi nan thought that this was just a strict statement, and did not expect that there would really be such another person.

"my dad treats me very well, like all dads who love kids, will buy me good food, will take me out to play, will take me to watch tv, will buy me favorite toys, never scold me for not hitting me." 」

"on the other hand, my mother, if she doesn't like it, she will scold me, sometimes she will slap me twice, she will never buy me new clothes and shoes, and she will never smile at you like your mother, she never smiles at me, and says that i am dragging an oil bottle, dragging her to make her lose her freedom." 」

shi nan sat down next to him, and was taken into his arms by song linsheng, his chin rubbing against his hair. <

"i like my dad, i don't like my mom, i even hate her, the home with her is always full of suffocation, no laughter, only endless silence and depression, and she looks at me with such obvious disgust in her eyes." 」

"she killed my dad and wanted to kill me, and my dad was lying on the ground covered in blood and watching me ask me to save him, but there was nothing i could do."

song linsheng's hand holding the cigarette was obviously trembling, shi nan held his hand to stabilize, song linsheng took a sip, and slowly spat out a puff of smoke.

"for a long time afterwards, i always felt that my childhood was very sad, i had an unhealthy family, there was a mother who regarded me as an enemy and wanted to kill me, and i should not be alive." 」

"no." shi nan hugged his waist tightly, "no.

"you're right, you're not." song linsheng suddenly laughed bitterly, "it turned out that it wasn't."

shi nan was stunned for a moment, looked up at him, song linsheng's eyes were full of sadness: "when i really realized all this, it was when i was in the orphanage, the woman threw the child who had just been born at the door of the orphanage, and when she ran away, she said that she couldn't have this child, and with this child, the second half of her life was ruined."

"shi nan, not every mother will give up her life for her children."

the cigarette butt was about to burn to the fingers, shi nan held his hand to extinguish the cigarette butt in the ashtray, song linsheng took a deep breath: "later, i saw the cold and warm in the world, and then slowly recalled the past, only to find that it was i who forced her into the darkness step by step, and there was no disaster."

shi nan was stunned and subconsciously looked up at him. <

song linsheng half-closed his eyes, and his voice trembled a little: "those memories are like □□, at first i didn't feel anything, and once i had a seizure, i knew how fierce the medicine was."