Mention of panic attack, suicide
(Thursday)
The next days were great. George stayed home while Clay went to school.
In the afternoon Clay organized a bunch of different activities to bring George to smile.
George always tried to smile and act happy, but in reality he was very hurt.
He didn't talk to anyone about how he really felt.
Not even Clay.
He felt guilty for dumping his problems on Clay, so he kept them to himself.
Sometimes at night he woke up because of a nightmare or a panick attack.
When that happened he tried to be really quite and snuck out into the bathroom to calm down.
George's POV:
It was Thursday and George woke up from a horrible nightmare of his Dad hurting him and Clay. His breathing was very fast and he started panicking.
George quickly got up and went to the bathroom, as quite as he could. He closed the door, didn't lock it tho.
He collapsed onto the floor and started crying. He couldn't hold his emotions any longer. He was shaking and barly breathing.
Clay's POV:
Clay woke up to the bathroom door open and close again. He opened his eyes and saw George wasn't in bed with him.
Suddenly he heard someone fall onto the floor. And then he heard crying.
He got up and walked to the bathroom as quick as possible. He opened the door and saw George crying and shaking.
"Oh George" Clay said and sat down next to George, pulling him into his lap. He rubbed George's back and told him to copy his breathing.
Around ten minutes later George calmed down, but he was still sobing.
"George, can you please tell me what happened?" Clay asked softly.
"It was just another nightmare and then a panick attack" George replied.
"What do you mean another? Did you had any other panick attacks this week?" Clay asked, now really consern.
"Y-yes. Almost every day" George said crying. "Oh George" Clay said holding onto George tight.
"I-I felt bad dumping my problems on you, so I kept them for myself"
"George-"
"You organized so many great things and I didn't want to ruin them for you"
"George-"
"And now you'll probably leave me and I completely understand that. I should be alone anyways and I don't understand why you were there for me for so long"
"George!"
"I shouldn't be here anyways. I just cause problems and I anoy every one. I should just die" George said.
"George stop! Don't you dare say that! I love you and I-I don't even know what to say. I should've seen that you were still suffering, but I didn't. I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry you had to go through all of that. You are amazing and didn't deserve any of that" Clay replied.
"Yes I did! I am worthless and no one should've care about me. I should just kill myself. That's better for everyone" George said.
"No! Stop! Please George! Stop! You're not worthless, you are amazing. And I love you with all my heart. I can't live without you" Clay said
"You should've" George said. "George. Look at me" Clay said and George did.
Clay looked very concern and just so shocked what his boyfriend thinks of himself. Clay couldn't live without George and George knew that. He couldn't either, but he felt so guilty for doing that to Clay.
"I'm sorry" George said while crying into Clay's shoulder. "Shh it's okay" Clay said.
"It's not" George replied. "It is. I'm here for you and I'll always be here" Clay said kissing George onto the forehead.
"Thank you. You mean a lot to me" George said smiling at Clay. "You mean a lot to me too" Clay replied connecting their lips.
"We should go back to bed now" Clay suggested and George nodded. They got into bed and Clay held onto George really tight, never wanting to let him go.
"I love you and I hope you know that" Clay said. "I love you too" George said and he fell asleep.
Clay couldn't sleep. Like how was he ment to sleep when his boyfriend just told him that he wanted to kill himself and that he is no one.
Yeah right no one could. So Clay stayed up all night stroking tru George's hair and quitely crying.
He was so scared what George could've done to himself.
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