Tomorrow in Our Yesterday [ON-HOLD]

Prologue

Prologue

If you were given a chance to go back in time and change something, would you do it? Would you go?

Would I do it? Would I go?

I made a lot of mistakes in my life. Some were minors that I could easily move forward and some were really.. life-changing.. in a bad way. I don’t really want to remember them actually. But they were already carved in the back my head and engraved deep in my bones. I can’t forget about them.. no matter how hard I try.

Kung alin pa iyong mga bagay na gusto mo ng kalimutan, iyon pa ‘yung mga bagay na nakatatak na sa utak mo. Funny, isn’t it? The irony of life.

They said that those mistakes were the one that lead us to who we are now. Those mistakes made us grow. It made us stronger, wiser, and more matured. They said that those mistakes happened for us to learn from it and to never do it again.

But what if I wanted it to never happen in the first place?

I want to go back in time and stop myself from making those wrong decisions. Dahil kahit ilang taon na ang lumipas, naroon pa rin ako. I was stuck at the time where I was in front of him, confessing my love for him.

I wish I wasn’t that naïve. I wish I knew better than to humiliate myself in front of many people. I wish I never loved him.

Because no matter how many years passed, the pain was still here.

I thought I could just stay like that and wait for myself to move forward. Time heals every wound, they said, and I thought that it could also work for me. But it's been years and I’m tired of hoping for something uncertain.

Not until that happened. A mysterious old lady came to me and gave me an old necklace with a clock pendant. I didn’t accept it at first, because the old woman give me the creeps, but she was too persistent and in the end, I accepted the necklace.

“Magbalik ka sa nakaraan at baguhin ang iyong hinaharap.”

Her words left me confused but she just smiled and left me. Tiningnan ko na lamang ang binigay niya sa aking orasan na isa pa ring malaking palaisipan sa akin.

“Oh tulala ka na naman diyan sa kwintas mo. Saan mo ba kasi nabili ‘yan? Ang luma na tingnan oh! What if may sumpa pala ‘yan?”

Napalingon ako kay Amara na ngayon ay nakaharap na sa’kin. She looked bored while looking at me with her palms under her chin.

“Hanggang ngayon naniniwala ka pa rin sa mga ganyan? Hindi totoo ang mga sumpa sumpa ‘no! Tigilan mo na nga ang kakapanood ng mga horror movies. Masyado mong isinasabuhay,” sabat ko at pabirong umirap sa kanya.

“What if lang naman ‘no! Ikaw na nga ang binabalaan diyan.”
Hindi ko na siya sinagot at itinago ko na lang ang kwintas sa aking bag. Ilang araw na ito sa’kin at wala namang kakaibang nangyari. Siguro peke ‘yung matandang manghuhula na nakasalubong ko. Pero ang creepy niya talaga. Kahit sino ay mapapaniwala niya sa gimik niyang ganon.

Bumalik ang mga mata ko kay Amara ng bigla siyang suminghap, ginagawa niya iyon kapag may naalala siyang importante.

“Ay girl, hindi pala ako makakapag-overtime ngayon. May date kami ng boyfriend ko eh,” bulong sa’kin ni Amara. Napabuntong hininga na lang ako bago tumango. Lagi na lang ganito. Nauna naman ako kaysa sa boyfriend niya pero ako pa ‘yung nakikihati sa oras nitong babaeng ‘to.

Napansin niya ang pagtatampo ko kaya ngumuso siya sa’kin. “Ikaw naman kasi eh, bakit ba kasi hindi ka pa mag-boyfriend? Madami namang mga nanliligaw sa’yo. Ang choosy mo, girl,” dagdag pa nito.