Tomorrow in Our Yesterday [ON-HOLD]

Chapter 1

Love.

I guess everyone is familiar with it and there are different kinds of it. Love can be found in family, friends, passion, hobby, dreams, and of course, it can be found in a special someone.

Love is very powerful. It can make you do extraordinary things. Yung mga bagay na akala mo hindi mo kayang gawin, unconsciously ay nagagawa mo. You will eat your own words. Even forget the standards you set for yourself. It makes you hopeful for something more from that significant person. It makes you dreamy.

Remember those moments where you can't sleep just because of a single interaction.

Remember those moments where you walk from your building to their building just to steal a glance.

Remember those moments when you are actively stalking their account just to know more about them and to keep updated.

Remember those moments where you get teased by your friends just because you walked passed them in the hallway.

I did all that and more. I never really thought about those things back then. I was consumed by the overwhelming emotion that I never thought of my actions.

I only realized it now that I am an adult. There's no room for regrets now but I wished I knew better. I was too young to realize how absurd my expectations were and when reality slapped me, I was too hurt.

Love.

It is an unexplainable feeling. 'Yung bang kapag tinanong ka kung anong ibig sabihin non ay matitigilan ka, mapapaisip ng matagal at hahanap ng kasagutan. Till now, I don't know what love is. It was foreign for me. I forgot how it felt like after being hurt by someone I loved dearly.

But do you know what love really is? Sigurado ka bang pagmamahal ang nararamdaman mo sa isang tao?

How can you be so sure? Are you really sure you are in love?

Bakit kapag nawala ang nararamdaman mong pagmamahal sa isang taong matagal mong inalayan ng pag ibig ay mapapatanong ka bigla sa sarili mo kung tunay bang minahal mo ang taong 'yon?

Why do we have to be confused?

"Hi, Damien!"

Sinundan ko ng tingin ang malalakas na tilian. Maraming babae ang nakapaligid sa kanya pero tanaw ko pa rin ang gwapo niyang mukha. Matangkad kasi siya kaya mapapansin mo agad. Gwapo rin kaya habulin ng mga babae. Sobrang gwapo. Para sa'kin.

With those brown curls, deep set of black eyes na malalim tumitig, well hindi niya pa naman ako natititigan, pointed nose and his lips, I don't know how to describe it. Kissable? Ang ayos niya ring pumorma, mukhang mabango lagi. Ang sarap sarap siguro niyang yakapin. Kahit tumayo lang siya diyan at walang gawin, ang lakas na ng dating.

Hays, Lord kailan ba siya mapapasakin?

Nawala na lahat ng iniisip ko at natuon na ang buong atensyon ko sa kanya. Napapalibutan na siya ng mga babae at palinga linga siya kung saan saan, siguro naghahanap ng exit sa kumpol ng mga babae sa paligid niya. Ayaw niya sa mga crowded places. He hates it. Lalo na kung siya ang pinagkakaguluhan.

How did I know this? Because I am his stalker. I'm not really proud about it and I know it's bad to invade someone's private life but I just really want to know him more. What he likes, dislikes, wants, hobbies, everything about him. I like him so much and he didn't even know, or maybe he didn't care. Hindi niya ako kilala at okay lang naman iyon.