Fᴀʟʟɪᴀᴍ Oɴᴇsʜᴏᴛs

Hoping for a baby

Fallon's POV

I feel so low right now. I do not have any wish to move, get out of bed or go on about my day. I just wanna lazily mope around.

You ask why? Well Liam and I have been trying for a baby for a month now, and there's no sign of a baby, yet. I dunno why, but that has made me rather upset and depressive. I feel like what if I can't ever be a mom? I really want to be one. I want to have Liam's baby.

All this is so depressing that I feel like crying all the time. At first Liam wasn't ready for one, he despised the thought of having a baby, now when he finally agreed to have one, I'm coming out as incapable. I just hope it's not some permanent damage.

"Babe?" Liam's voice breaks my train of thought and I try to sit upright on the bed.

"Yeah?"

"Your still in bed?" He asks with a sad tone lacing his voice. "Oh baby." He approaches me and takes my hand in his.

"I'm sorry." I mutter in shame, looking down at our clasped hands. "I can't give you what you wished for."

"Hey." He tilts my chin up, wiping the stray tear that has fallen down my chin, "It could be my fault too. No actually, it's none of ours faults. It's what's stored for us. We gotta accept it and move on. We'll not give up." He says in a softer whisper, kissing my cheek.

I just nod, not knowing what to say without falling apart.

"Wanna go on a stroll today? Just us, around the park." He suggests.

Although the idea of going around is too tiring and unappealing to me, I say yes for him. I don't wanna disappoint him further.

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Our hands are interlinked while we walk throughout the park. There's many moms and dads with their children, playing with dogs, laughing and giggling to themselves, my heart lurches seeing all these.

I grip his hand tightly, barely holding my tears.

"It's okay." He whispers near my ear, kissing there gently. "We'll get through it."

I know we will, with Liam by my side we'll be okay. But a baby can make our life better for sure.

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