Long Distance.

Part One

Here's my love story.

I guess it all started last year. We became... What's the word... Exclusive. Matt. He asked me out. Of course I couldn't say no. My feelings for the boy were and still are unexplainable. That was July 29th, 2010.

Did I mention we were dating long distance? Well...we were. Worst part about our relationship. Both of us are the complete opposite type of people. And I'll go into detail about that later!

I don't even know where to start. From the beginning?

My names Sam. You've heard of MSN Live Messenger, right? That's how we met. It was myself, my friend Ryan, my friend Lake, all in a 3 way chat. I didn't know Matt was in there, but he was. So now you can call it a 4 way chat. I already had him added to my contacts somehow, but it didn't bother me. I was single at the time; and he was in a relationship. That didn't bother me either. He was with a girl named Sarah, from his city. It was that night I got his number.

You couldn't blame me for staying up so late; it's summer. We started texting and I fell asleep on him while laying in bed. It sucked though. The day after he didn't text me, and it did bother me. As weird as it sounds, I was attracted to him through text. I got on msn after dinner that day, and believe me. The smile that formed on my face when I acknowledged he was online was unreal. I acted cool, sent him a message on messenger saying:

"Thanks for my text today!"

That was my attempt at making him feel guilty. It was so cute. As soon as he read that, I got a text from him saying "Good morning! -sent 7 hours ago-"

That made me laugh. Both now because of the memory and at the time it happened.

I got off msn after saying "text me", and you wouldn't believe it... He did text me. Our conversations were random, but no matter what we were talking about, he managed to make me grin from ear to ear. Out of no where, he comments saying "I hate playing questions with the wrong person." and my response to that was: "Would I be the wrong person to play with?"

That's when we started our game. I hope you know what questions is, if not, it's a game where you ask one another questions until it gets boring or you run out. The rules vary from person to person. Some play with the rule where you can't ask the opponent the same question they asked you. We didn't play with that rule and we didn't get bored, it was kind of amusing. I found out what his appearance is. Brown eyes, glasses, tall, dark haired. We didn't go into too much detail. And quite frankly, his appearance wasn't what got me interested. If you want to know mine; I'm short. 5'3 to be exact, blue eyes, blond hair and contacts. He's 17. I'm 18.

I did ask Matt about his girlfriend though. I know what your thinking. Why would I do that? Well it's a game called questions. He asked me why I'm single. And I confessed that I just got out of a relationship of 15 months. I was lucky that he didn't ask what happened. Why we ended from a long relationship. Thank god he had boundaries. He shared with me that he dislikes how clingy she can be. I went into detail and asked him to elaborate, and he told me that she doesn't like the guys that he hangs out with. At that moment; I took his side and commented on how dumb that is.

It was a few days after I noticed his personal message on msn. "<3 Sarah" was removed. I didn't jump in and ask what happened, I gave him his space just incase he was hurting. Maybe my mind was playing tricks with me though. Who said they even broke up? I jumped to that conclusion and assumed they did.

Another 2 days went by and I receive a drunken text saying "what's up!..." with an excessive amount of exclamation marks. Oh boy. It didn't affect me he was drunk, I guess it was his way of taking out anger. Here I go again. Assuming he is single. Well I replied after contemplating what to say. I don't remember word for word what I said, but we kept a conversation going. I should inform you that before he broke up with Sarah, I sent him a picture of me in exchange for one of him. He sure was cute. No doubt about that. After saying "Nothing, listening to music and walking my dogs, you?"

He said, "Your hitcute" which I'm pretty sure he meant "Your hot cute"

The relationship we had, consisted of texts. We texted an awful lot. I'm not complaining though. I loved talking to him.

Thursday. Just over a week after meeting. Here he was... Another party. He wasn't drunk though, that's a bonus. But the girls that were around him, hurt. I liked the boy. And I wanted to tell him. I couldn't come up with the right words to tell him though.

Matt was on his way to pizza pizza, he was getting pizza for the people there. He's a sweetheart. It made me smile he's that nice to do that. I knew he was alone because he shared that with me. So it was my chance. I texted him that I liked him, and it took him a little while to respond. I didn't think anything of it, and seeing as he was at a party, there must be a big order for the pizza was he was getting. A rush of butterflies attacked my insides and a smile formed on my lips when I saw that he replied. I looked at the text. Wasn't exactly what I was hoping for.

"I'm flattered:)" that was his response. It hurt. I thought the feelings I had for him was mutual. But it wasn't. I didn't know what to say to that, so I left him hanging and didn't respond.

It was Sunday. Me and my mom had planned a shopping trip in Minot for sometime. Finally we made the time to make it happen. I was packing a weeks worth of clothes when my phone vibrated. I wasn't excited to look seeing as it was 3 days since Matt and I talked. And being honest, I felt like such a dummy confessing my feelings I have for him so soon.

It was him.

"What's up? Haven't talked in a few days"

I gave it a little while before I gave him a response.

"Not much really, just finished packing. How about you? And I know"

He texts fast.

"Packing for what? Watching Duke play cod"

"Mom and I are going shopping in Minot & sounds like fun lol"

He didn't quite get my hint of sarcasm.

"Nice! I'm jellin"

"Yep, we planned it before summer to go, and finally made the time to"

"That's good"

Agh. I didn't know how to respond.

It was my turn to drive. I wasn't quite feeling it, but we agreed to. I like how easy the steering is in my moms Lexus anyway. Much better than my car. Having my headphones in, I couldn't hear my phones text ringtone. Matt: 4 unread texts. It's still early, I don't think he's drunk yet. I know, I know! On the phone while driving is a big no no. But I couldn't help it. If he texted me 4 times, it had to be eager right?

The first one says

"I like you:$"

"I'm sorry I'm telling you now"

"I hope your having fun"

"Unlike you not to reply, everything ok?"

Just as I was typing a reply, I get another one from him saying "You caught me off guard....I like you a lot"

I'm such a sucker. I started to tear. Reading that specific text made my summer, so far.