Forever

Prolouge

My body is trembling. Im so angry. Im so hurt. I feel betrayed.

It takes everything I have not to scream out in fustration.

I walk up to the familar green door and ring the bell. After several moments I ring it two more times. Still no answer.

Its 15 minutes to midnight but I dont care as I pound on the door with all my might.

It suddenly flies open and there he is.

I stumble back a few steps.

His light brown hair is messy, flying in all directions, his grey eyes hazed with sleep.

He stands there in a black shirt and blue pajama pants clearly surprised to see me.

"Dess, what are you doing here?" He sounds concerned.

My eyes begin to prickle and my face grows hot.

My heart beats more rapid as I remembered why I came. The words swirl around in my head but I cant find the courage to say it out loud.

He closes the door behind him and comes closer to me. I back away shaking my head.

"Dess, just tell me what happened." He says soothingly as he reaches out for me.

I can no longer confine my tears as they raced down my face.

"Why didnt you tell me?" I barely whispered. But he heard me. Loud and clear. He freezes, staring at me with wide eyes.

His arms drop to his side. All color drains out of his face.

"Dessie just-" he sighs "Just let me explain."

"No, Logan. How come you didnt tell me!?" I shout.

His eyes start to water. "You would have treated me like everyone else did. I wanted to be normal."

His words were like a blow to my chest.

"How could you say that? I would've loved you no matter wh-"

"Dont lie to me. You'd be too afraid to get close to me. I didnt want to be pitied."

Anger aroused in me. "That doesnt make it okay! You should have still told me! Why did i have to find out from someone else?!"

His jaw was set. His eyes were on the ground.

"Logan look at me damn it! Answer me!"

He picked up his head and stared back at me. He looked..broken.

"I was going to tell you but...you were so happy, we were so happy. I thought this would just hurt you. I thought it would wreck what we had and I couldnt do that." He says so low I almost think I imagined it.

At this point we were both crying.

"How long do you have?"

He flinches at my words but I need to know.

"Dess, I dont want to-" he starts.

"Logan. Tell me. How much time do you have left? How much time do we have left?!"

His gaze drops again.

"A few years?"

Still no answer.

"Oh god, no! Months?" I fall back against the banister as im engulfed into hysterics.

I thought I could be brave and confront him. I convinced myself I wanted the truth no matter what it took. But now I feel like the truth would just crush me.

Logan wraps his arms around me and I hold on to him like a life raft.

"I cant lose you. I-I dont know what I would do if, if-"

"You wont lose me." He assures me, rubbing my back.

"H-h-how can you be s-sure." I sputter into his chest.

"I promise I'm not going anywhere. You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me, and I'm not letting go so easy. I'm not going anywhere without you."

"Logan.." I whisper.

"Just tell me. How long do we have?"

I pull away just enough to look into his eyes.

"Forever. We have forever."